Hayden's choice

chapter six.

than i broke. maybe it was my hormones. but i just couldn't take it anymore... i call my bestfriend up and before i knew it we were in my flooor crying my eyes out. tomorrow's gonna be hard.. i don't know if i can do it...

what if everyone resents me for my decison? it already feels like i'm in this alone... my phone beeeps. it's a message from andrew.

"i can't believe you you dumb bitch. when were you gonna tell me the baby wasn't mine. i hate you. i can't believe this shit. i hope you and that thing rot in hell. i want a paternity ttest before you get a DIME out of me. we're over."

i couldn't breathe... i was just in shock...

"what did he want?" kayla said.

i just satt there staring at it. my body was numb...

and before i knew it kayla grabbed my phone.

"TANNER!" she screamed.

than i snapped back."kayla! noo! he's probaly just on another acid trip or something..."

"hayden are you stupid? did we just read the same text message?"

"kayla please..."i pleaded as tears ran down my face...

"what is it? god can't you see i have a- hayden why are you crying?"

i just turned away. i couldn't be weak. i had to be strong. for this baby.

"tannner-" kayla started to say.

"please." was all i could whisper.

"i think you should read this." she said she handed him my phone.

i can't believe her. everyone was betraying me everyone was turning their back on me...

"are you fucking kidding me?!" tanneer screamed.

i just sat there in my flooor trying to catch my breath. just a couple moths ago me and andrew we're on the beach having a picnk and were laying in the sand holding hands starring at the stars. i'm complety broken.

i mean how can he sit there and say this baby isnt his? he's the only guy i have ever had my eyes on... i can't belive he was so heartless he called our baby a 'thing' this baby wasn't a thing... this baby was my world. i can't let my baby live in a place like this... my baby needs a father... adoption was sounding so good right now. but i know that keeping it is what i should do. keeping this baby inside me was the right thing to do.

"hayden. you are never to speak to this poor excuse of a man ever again, ever i want let my baby sister and my niece or nephew be treated like this. he better not EVER come tho this house ever again."

and before i knew it was surrounded, being hug and loved on whle i just cried my heart out.

"i can do this.. i can do this.. with or without andrew. i can do this. i know i can..."

is what i kept saying aloud. while kaya kept telling me it was okay and tanner patted my back while i just layed there feeling like nothing. i wanted to die. but i know i couldnt ever go that far. i know that i had to be the strong woman i am. get off my knees dust my self off. and be a mother to this baby. with or without andrew. if he wants to help he can. if he wants to be apart he of his childs life. he can. but we're not getting back together.i can't live llike this. i was suddenly filled with anger.