Seek and You Shall Find

Chapter 10

The whole week flew impossibly fast. It was the worst week of my life.

I didn’t even pay attention to school. I flunked my tests, every single one of them. I could see the concerned looks my teachers gave me but I ignored them all. I even got detentions and I don’t really recall for what.

My mind was somewhere else every time. It was too full of crap and my brain didn’t take it too well. It was like I was isolated from the world.

I tried countless times to approach and apologize to Ria but she would just ignore me completely. Acting as if I didn’t exist. And you want to know the bad thing? Trev was always with her and followed her around. I was super confused. I didn’t even know if they were an item. Most probably. But I never took Trev for a guy who would like to be with my slutty sister.

They went to school together in Trev’s car. They sat together during lunch. Trev walked her to her classes and they even went home together. Trev would stay at our house just lounging around with Ria. There are times when I catch him looking at me but turn away when I notice it.

I didn’t even know what to feel anymore. For all I know, they’ve made up a Via’s haters club. Trev confused me. He was my best friend for years and he just decided to up and leave and become my sister’s best friend? Boyfriend? Whatever!

And about Martin. I haven’t seen him since the incident. Haven’t even heard from him. He should just keep on avoiding me. I don’t know what to say or do if ever I pass by him in the hallways. Thankfully, I haven’t.

I felt like I was going to explode by Friday. The day dragged and just let it pass ignoring everyone who tried to talk to me, even the teachers.  I wondered if the rest of my life would be spent like this.

When I got in my car to drive home, I noticed Trev speaking with Ria. I can’t pretend I wasn’t  hurt. He’s left me for my sister. He was supposed to be my best friend. And now it looks like he was comforting my sister.

I saw him turn his head to look at me. But I looked away before he could stare me in the eyes. I turned the engine on and drove away from the school’s parking lot. I didn’t head straight home because I know the duo would stay there like every other day this week.

I just drove around for like 30 minutes before heading home, thinking they were done with their flirting which I didn’t really like to witness.

When I opened the front door I heard someone in the kitchen. I thought it was my dad so I peeked in. Ria was cooking something and was her back was turned so she didn’t see me but Trev was leaning on the counter, facing towards me so he saw me.

I turned away before he could say anything and went upstairs to my room. I turned on my player and turned the volume way up. I collapsed on my bed, exhausted from the whole week.

I knew what I had to do. I knew where I wanted to go. I took a quick shower and wrapped a towel around myself before going to my walk-in closet. I chose a one piece swimsuit. A not revealing one. I pulled a white flowy dress over my head and packed a towel, sunscreen and extra clothes in a bag. I never went to the beach alone but I knew I would be able to think there peacefully about my situation.