Seek and You Shall Find

Chapter 12

Trev's POV  

It was Saturday night and I haven't gone to see Via since I left their house yesterday. My newly found feelings for her kept me inside my room the whole day. I was in denial, making so many scenarios in my head to explain what I did yesterday.  

I'm still unsure of what I should feel about the kiss, what I should feel about her reaction. But what I was sure of was it meant nothing to her.  

On the other hand, it meant everything to me. It was an eye opener for the feelings I never thought I would have for the girl I have spent my 3 years of high school with.  

I was sprawled out on my bed staring at my phone, hesitating on calling her back. She had called me 17 times the whole day and each time I would push my phone away to stop the urge of picking up. It was weird and disappointing to know that she was totally unaffected by the kiss, that she had the guts to talk to me after what I did to her. It only meant she was over the whole thing.  

It was already dark outside, no stars were in sight. Earlier that day, it was cloudy, the sky agreeing with my mood. Now, staring out my window, rain started to fall. I never liked the rain, thunders, lightning. It always reminded me of how my dad died for me. So whenever a storm was coming, I would sleep over at Via's. I was just scared of the memories they brought but I never told Via that. I was hoping there wasn't a storm coming for the night, I couldn't sleep over tonight at their place. Things were just... complicated.  

I never left my room the whole day, causing my mom to check up on me, looking overly concerned. She asked me what was wrong but I just shrugged it off. There wasn't anything wrong with me. Just confused and lost. Yet I didn't tell her that. I always told my mom everything but I was still trying to deny my discoveries so I didn't tell her yet. She offered me some food, but I refused to eat too so she just left it on my study table. I smiled as she left my room.  

My mom is the strongest person I know. I always depended on her since my dad died. I don't know how my mother coped with my dad's passing away. She lost the love of her life because of me. I would always laugh when I saw them staring at each other all lovey dovey. I hoped I could find someone that I could be like that with but I was too young then.  

It was a long time before I saw my mother smile genuinely again. I did everything I could to make her happy again. She did the same for me. I never told her that I didn't want her to date other guys. I wouldn't want any other father figure in my life other than my dad. Besides, I couldn't see my mother being happy with anyone else because I've seen how she was with my father. I guess I never have to ask that from her. It would be selfish of me.  

The light switching on in Via's room caught my attention, pulling me away from my thoughts. I quickly looked away not wanting to see her yet if ever the curtains were open. I guess they were back from the restaurant.  

The food was still there on my table, calling out to me, cold and untouched. My stomach growled and I sighed, giving up from my stubborness. I was a growing boy. Hungry all the time.  

When I finished the pasta my mom left, I looked around and realized she didn't leave a glass of water. I guess she forgot. I stood up and left my room for the first time the whole day, walking towards the kitchen, taking with me the plate I used. I left it on the sink, got a glass of water and drank. I couldn't hear my mother anywhere and I remember her saying she had to go somewhere earlier.  

I took the glass of water with me in case I got thirsty in the middle of the night. I decided to check up on my mom first if she was already home. It was late and it wasn't safe for her to drive at night since it was pouring outside.  

I didn't bother knocking on her door. The first thing I noticed were clothes strewn across the floor. My eyes drifted to the bed and saw my mother kissing, with some man I have never seen in my life, under the covers.  

The first emotion that registered into my brain was shock. As the glass of water from my hands dropped on the floor, a loud rumble of thunder sounded and a strike of lightning lit up my mother's room. Both of them looked in my direction, horror evident in my mother's face.  

Different feelings flooded through me at the same time. Pain. Anger. Diappointment. I felt betrayed. I didn't even close the door, didn't even listen to my mother calling for me.  

I ran out of the house, slamming the door behind me into the pouring rain, running, running, running away from everything. Not knowing what to feel anymore, not seeing anything else in the way. I was blindly running away in the cold night, feeling the rain on my skin, hearing the thunder. As lightning struck again, the image of my mother in bed with another man floated around my head.  

The next thing I knew, lights streaming from a set of headlights were blinding me and the sound of the car's horn, warning me to get out of the way. This was my end.  

My life should have ended nine years ago if my father haven't pushed me out of the way, if the car from nine years ago hit me instead of him I wouldn't be feeling this pain now.  

I gave up. I didn't move. I felt numb and I was sure if the car speeding towards me hit me, I wouldn't feel anything. It was impossible to feel more pain from being crushed by a car than the pain my mother and best friend just caused me.  

Just when the car was inches from me, I felt warm hands pulling me away into the sidewalk. I fell on top of my savior's small body. It was strange how someone so small could pull me out of the way. The car that was supposed to hit me, sped away, not even bothering to look behind. I closed my eyes and groaned in disbelief. I should've died already!  

One thing's for sure, I won't thank whoever it is that interfered with fate and stopped me from dying again. I felt the meddlesome person trying to sit up and I moved away to refrain from crushing the person below me with my weight. Opening my eyes and looking up, I realized I was looking straight into my best friend's ocean blue eyes.