Awaited Kismet [Completed]

Chapter 3: Scary feeling to lose a friend and a love

It's the usual morning, Takumi and Shiyo are sitting next to each other on the black benches in the courtyard where it seems like they have their own world. Takumi noticed that Shiyo's girl classmates sit on the other side of the courtyard where the green tables are.

"You're not going with them?." he asks in between their laughter with the anime they're watching in Takumi's laptop.

She shook her head smiling. " You are enough to be my friend." She answered.

"Why? You can be friends with them and make more friends than to be stuck up here with me." He gave her an alternative scenario.

"Because you're the very first person who noticed me; step before me, despite being my timid self." She smiled sweetly. "It's you who's stuck up with me." She retaliates half joking to his delight.

These days, he can always see the light in her eyes the leaves falling from the tree looks beautiful to watch with her. Even the noise when they eat at the canteen becomes silent when he hear her tone of voice when she's excited to tell him a story of her life. He also finds it cute how she tries so hard to keep a topic during their conversations as to avoid any awkward silence between them.

Shiyo is continuing her story. She was writing in her notebook.

--She happily stays with him. She realized, she is contented having nothing else but him.--

"Before, why did you decided to be my friend and help me make friends?" Shiyo asks curiously.

She was sitting in front of Takumi. They are in the black tables.

"You can make friends easily, unlike me." She added.

There's a few seconds of silence when he look at her.

"Because you deserve it. I hope I can help you make many friends but I in the end I can only help you make one." He feels sorry for that.

"That one really knows how to make me happy." She assures her and he was touched by that.

--They look at each others' eyes with sweet smile on their face. Those little moments are too good to last forever.-- Shiyo closes her notebook and went to bed.

Shiyo skip-walking excitedly on the way to the black tables. But arriving there, she paused in surprise that their table is empty; Takumi is not there. She look around the courtyards and he is nowhere to be found.

She continues writing a story on her notebook...

--The girl kept on going to the courtyard, to those black tables but he's not showing up. She's worried. It's almost the end of autumn. One week had passed since she last saw him. She wondered why he's not showing up. Because she knew in her heart, she misses him already. And the urge to see him grows every single day.--

Shiyo stop writing on her notebook. She look through the window, it's raining cats and dogs. Before going home, she passed by the black tables, hoping he was there but found no one. She stop at the courtyard's entrance. She doesn't have an umbrella with her. The weather makes her even sadder. She feels lonely without Takumi. A tear slides on her cheeks. She wipes it out with her bare hands and walks into the rain.

After taking a few steps, she paused and feels the rain through her uniform; getting wet in the rain. She was soaked wet. When she looked up the sky. The next time it might be the snow that will be pouring down on her. A moment after the sky she's looking at has been covered by an umbrella shading her. She wondered who is it but in her heart she was wishing for only a single person to appear.

She look behind and see a man, her only friend she really misses; Takumi!

"Takumi-san..." she uttered.

"You should not walk in the rain, you'll get sick." he was worried.

She's forcing herself not to burst crying but the tears fall as hard as the rain pours down the sky. She took a step to throw herself hugging him causing the umbrella to fall from his hands.

"Where have you been? I was worried about you." she said embracing him tightly. He could not say a word to the girl holding him.

"Sorry." At least those words he has to say.

Shiyo withdraws when she realize what she have done. She noticed the umbrella on the ground and picked it up; shading the both of them.

"I didn't mean—I was just..." he just stared at her who's embarrassed. He saw her face turning red.

"Let me handle that." He hold the umbrella and they started to walk.

--By that time, the girl came to the realization, that she love him more than a friend and she wants to know if he feels the same.-- Shiyo closes her notebook as she lay on her bed. She's nervous about confessing and afraid to lose a love and a friend.

It's true when they say that when you started to have special feelings to someone, you became aware of your actions around that person and you also want to know all about him at the same time. Falling in love with a friend is really dangerous. There are numerous times you might misunderstand if he's giving a sign that he might have the same feelings.

She didn't realize I fell asleep laying her head on the desk at the black tables. It's early in the morning when their first class was canceled because the professor is sick. Only when the sunlight hits her eyes that she was awoken and when she open her eyes she saw a hand trying to cover the sunlight for her. She saw Takumi's face next smiling.

"Good morning." He greeted and that made her fall in love with him more.

It's only a matter of days that they came to the inevitable...

"What I really want you to know is that... I-I have fallen for you. I love you." Shiyo confesses her face turning red because of embarassment. She can see through his eyes that he was startled. There was a moment of silence before he replied.

"Please don't." to her disappointment, he replied almost pleading.

"Because if you do, I can't stay friends with you anymore." He added and that stab her heart.

"W-Why? Takumi-san?" she's trying to muster her words.

" I didn't make you a friend just to fall in love with me." Those words were as clear as saying 'I'm sorry I cannot return your feelings'..

--The girl never saw him after that.--

She thinks it was over. She lost a love and a friend but after a week, she saw a familiar back passing by the courtyard.

"Takumi-san!" She called.

He turned to her but after a glance, he turned away. He was going to run away when she hugs him from behind. "Don't run away from me! If the reason is you don't feel the same, it's okay. I won't ask you to return the same feelings. We can just still remain friends. At least that..." she cried.

He shoves her off and faces her and she saw a tear fall down his eyes. She cannot understand.

"But I can't!" he shouted as if it was hurting him and she waited to hear his reason.

"Because--" as he was to say something, she saw him hold his chest in pain kneeling on the ground and soon collapses in front of her.

"Takumi-san!" she knelt to hold him in panic.