Beat Heal Love

Chapter 16

Chapter 16

"What the hell happened?!" I hear Scott shout as I'm carried inside.

"Quiet, this is the calmest she's been all day," James tells Scott. Yes this is the calmest I've been but once I'm alone in my dark room I'm going to break. Nathan's also carrying me. He hasn't let me go since I answered his question.

"We ask questions so that we can understand and help. With that, I only have one question. If you don't want to answer now, you don't have to. It would help if you did but it's up to you. What did he do this time?" Nathan asks me and I try to hide even more into his body; I really don't want to say. Nathan knows that it was bad because I never do this without reason. I always try to stay strong until I'm alone and I think he knows that.

"That bad, huh?" I don't even nod or anything. I don't want to answer but I know that it will help. It's easier to lie to James than it is to Nathan. I know I will tell him, I just have to get the strength to do so.

"H-He made me give him a b-blowj-job and made me s-swallow." I finally stutter in a whisper. He hugs me tighter as I force my tears not to come. But I wasn't done. "H-he also drew b-blood from my c-chest and f-fucked me a-again." Nathan starts comforting me and telling me to go to sleep but I shake my head at the latter. I don't want a nightmare right now. I won't be able to handle it right now.

"You're safe with me and Peter is going away to jail, we'll all make sure of that no matter what it takes." I nod but then we're silent after that.

I still have my face hidden when James comes out and tells Nathan to go in. I let Nathan go but he doesn't.

"The detective can question me some other time. Charlie needs me more now. Is he in holding?"

"Yea and there's no bail right now. He's not getting out of there any time soon." James states then the truck starts moving. Nathan doesn't bother with the seatbelt as he holds me. James and Nathan are talking but I really don't care what they're saying. I'm more concerned about not crying right now. I can be strong in front of people but when I'm alone I know how broken I still am.

We're back to the present after that. Nathan's just putting me down in my bed and looks uncertain of something.

"Do you want me to stay?' He asks me. I guess that's the reason for the look. I shake my head and he sighs. "Do you want Max then" Another shake. "Okay, just let us know if you need us, okay?" I nod and he walks out, turning off the lights as he goes. I finally break.

Tears start sliding down my cheeks as I sob without making any sounds. I can finally say–and mean it–that I agree with a quote I once heard,

"The worst type of crying wasn't the kind everyone could see–the wailing on street corners, the tearing at clothes. No, the worst kind happened when your soul wept and no matter what you did, there was no way to comfort it. A section withered and became a scar on the part of your soul that survived." – Katie McGarry

I huddle into a fetal position as I continue crying, thinking about all the words I've been told and are on my back, permanently etched into my skin. I know they're not true, the words, but they still hurt. I also think about how much pain my body is in. I just let my mind break once again until my body can't take anymore and puts me to sleep.

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I wake up when I feel a body behind mine move. I tense up, recent events still fresh. I know it's not Peter, but my body isn't ready just yet.

Slowly, I get out of my bed and out of the room without looking at the person even though I'm 99% sure it's Nathan.

I look at James' door as I pass it and I don't see any lights or movement under it. I look towards the office and get the same result. He must be asleep.