Thou Shall Not Sin

TSNS 21

Kylie & Johnny in MM

Kylie POV

So, I'd decided to give Johnny a call on this marriage counseling thing. I had thought on it, and I just don't want to be alone. I want my child to have a father figure in his life. August obviously isn't an option because 1: he's an asshole, 2: he is kinda young. I just decided that this was the right thing to do. If the counselor could help, then I'd go ahead and try to fix things. If not, then I'd have to raise this child alone.

"Hello?" Johnny said into the phone.

"I'm ready to go to counseling. I wanna work things out." I said only half believing it myself.

"Really? I'm so happy right now. Baby what made you change your mind?" He asked.

I cringed and rolled my eyes in disgust. "I just....still love you and uhh...yea." I said not being able to keep bullshitting.

"Okay baby. Well, we going on a counseling retreat so pack a bag or two cause this is a week long. Also, make sure you get some comfortable clothes cause I know you pregnant." He said.

I was shocked. How the fuck did he know? I wasn't big enough to be showing. Maybe it was the glow. I'm not sure.

"How did you-" he cut me off.

"I heard you when you ordered pickles on your burger the day at the burger joint. You never eat pickles." He said.

"Well maybe my taste buds could have changed." I said.

"Nope. I know you and you're stubborn." He said.

I laughed. Then, I felt a slight pang of guilt. Why was I doing this really? Because I didn't want to be alone or as slight revenge? Oh well, either way, I was too far gone now.

"So when is the trip?" I asked.

"In two days. Well. I got to go get ready for this dinner with the deacon board. Love you. See you in two days." He said sweetly.

"Bye." I said before hanging up.

So its settled, I have become an evil bitch. I guess a person can only be pushed so far before they start retaliating back against humanity. Did Johnny deserve this? Yes and no. Mostly yes. Was I wrong? Hell yes. Nevertheless, it doesn't matter. I am grown and sometimes, you gotta do what you gotta do.

Two days later, Johnny and I were on a plane to Hawaii. We went to Hawaii on our honeymoon. I remember that was the best week of my life. It was like we were starting over. Little did he know, he was starting over with a different woman.

I was older, more mature. I had more experience in life, and with him. He'd broke me down and I'd had to build myself back up. I wasn't going to let him back in so easy. No, he'd for sure have to work his ass off for me. He would have to earn my trust back.

"I'm so glad you decided to come on this retreat with me." Johnny said.

I only offered up a smile. This couldn't be more of what I didn't want. I didn't want to be here with him. I would rather have gone by myself.

I just kept hearing August say he loved me. I kept trying to get over him and push it to the back of my mind, but he had a hold on me. He wouldn't let me go. I wanted to be free. If this was what it took to get free, so be it.

Once the plane landed, my heart dropped with it. Still, I had to suck it up for the sake of my baby. I sighed as we walked ofd the plain and to the airport. We got into a cab and drove to the resort, Johnny talking about how pretty I looked and how much he loved me the whole way there.

Once we got to our hotel, Johnny held the door open for me. I could have turned around and run away. I could have gone back to the airport and booked a flight home. I could have told him the truth and said I didn't want to be with him. Instead, I held my head low and walked into the hotel room, him shutting the door behind me.

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