Second Chance. (Ultimate Dream Sequel - Zak Bagans Fan Fic)

Not Yet.

Soon after Zak gave me the most amazing gift he left, giving me some time to think about this whole situation. I thought I knew what I wanted but this has altered things, there are some many issues I must take into account if I was to move on, all of them revolving around Leigh.

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Zak POV*

To have her in my arms finally was such a release, her face placed perfectly in my palms. I couldn't deny that she wasn't gorgeous as she was, a beautiful woman. Her big blue eyes were like the ocean, full of possibilities, full of calm and grace.

Once she allowed me in further she clung hard onto me, the hunger was real. Tilly had something about her, something that reached out to me and made me feel myself again.

"Dude we have you been?" I walked in to my house and to find Billy reviewing our videos and Aaron in stress. "You said you were going to the bathroom!"

I laughed at him and continued to my lounge were I flung myself. I threw my hat off and caught the guys with their mouths wide open, why am I friends with such weird people?

"Yes?" I looked at them.

"You haven't sat on that couch since-- you know?" Billy widen his eyes.

"I know. It's a good couch though" I snuggled my ass against the material and laid down.

"Who is she?" Aaron spoke up, the air seemed thicker as he asked his question. I could feel their curiosity, their shock and their judgmental looks.

"Not yet." I got up and pushed passed Aaron, why was it hard to understand that I'm allowed to be happy? I've been through fucking hell and I want out, what if Tilly is my only life like for that? Will they deprived me of it?

"Don't move on too quick bro" Aaron patted my shoulder and continued working alongside Billy.

How can they even say that! I'm not jumping to the next woman and getting my fix, this was about me finding happiness.

After a few hours of editing and eating the guys headed off home, they tried to bring up this whole thing again but I wouldn't allow them too.

I went to my lounge room with my SB7 box and tried to speak to Leigh, was I feeling guilty? Maybe but how could she want me to live like this?

As the SB7 box was sweeping through different frequencies I went and got our wedding picture and brought in next to me, once I starred at it I could feel her entering the room. It was light and full of love, it was getting me a bit emotional.

"Am I hurting you Leigh?" It was the only thing I could think to say.

"Too soon?"

"I'm sorry." I bowed my head down.

"Don't grieve for me, I'm now free" she silently spoke through the box. I raised my face in smiles, the sound of her beautiful voice as if angels were speaking.

"Grief is loves unwillingness to let go, Zak" she was still giving me little things to live by even though she wasn't alive. I smiled to myself and relaxed a bit, maybe this wasn't all so bad.

"Her name is Tilly, you'd like her."

"I do." She spoke clearly no doubt Leigh wouldn't have missed her.

"How can I do this to you? I'm such a bad husband! I'm sorry Leigh, there's a hole in my heart and it hurts! This is so wrong!" I screamed out but Leigh didn't reply, it's like she left me there when I needed her.

I stayed on the lounge and spent the night there, I didn't sleep as my mind was high on ecstasy. I couldn't remove the imprint of Tilly's kiss but then again I couldn't wipe away Leigh's memories.

How was this ever going to work?