Second Chance. (Ultimate Dream Sequel - Zak Bagans Fan Fic)

Go To Him.

I spent the next few days between hiding under my blankets and soaking in my tub for well over hours drinking and listening to sad songs. I had every heartbreak song and soon enough the didn't seem sad anymore, their songs had hope as my situation I think failed. How the fuck could he have told me its best to be apart? I understand he loves Leigh and he told her things he told me but hey hey he was married to her! Cc fucked things up.

I brought myself out of bed to eat, I binged through my fridge with nothing to eat.

Thank god I was at a hotel, room service come at me!

They brought up my food and I took it to bed demolishing it all, I was spread out on my bed rubbing my tummy I think my eyes were bigger than my stomach.

I rolled over to pull my phone out and I accidentally pulled out that letter. 'Her'.

I tossed it away and dug further, I had a list of missed calls and messages from Aaron, Jay, Liam and one from Zak. I didn't want to read it but I couldn't seem to look away, if it was his last final message to me how would I be able to cope? Did he ever think of me and my feelings, I was a person in this fucked up relationship too.

I couldn't deal with it all and flung myself back to the bed.

"Time apart might be good.."

I can't believe he thinks being apart would do any good, I know he'll be thinking about this going insane just like me. This wasn't going to help the situation but I'm done fighting, I wanted to leave Vegas before Zak arrived home.

I have two weeks to get my shit together and decide where to go and what to do, I could go back to my law degree. I could go back to being a nanny? I searched up jobs and started to apply for them, I even looked for cemetery jobs. I loved that job probably my most favourite job.

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I woke up the next morning in a complete mess, I must've had a nightmare cause bedroom was literally upside down. I got up and found the letter open by the desk, I don't remember opening it. I ran to check if anyone was in my room but my door was lock shut and nothing was missing, I don't understand how this happened.

I was so lost and confused with this all and I needed to get away, I got dressed and headed to the cemetery. I needed time with my mum and dad, I needed to know they were by my side.

I drove quickly to see them, as I approached the cemetery it seemed all different. Liam did a good job at everything, I saw Nellie walking around she must now be working.

"Tilly?" She called out.

"Tills!" I spun around to see Liam running to me, he jumped all over me hugging me tight. "What are you doing here? I thought you were gone!" He shouted in excitement.

"I uh not leaving just yet." He looked surprised.

"Zak obviously has something to do with this decision?" He nudged me.

"Um maybe, I'm leaving before he comes home from England. I was an idiot thinking I'd work, it's just battles between us and trying to be together." I trusted Liam and values his opinion, he opened his arms and hugged me tight.

"Tilly, fuck everyone else's opinion. You told me that, you mean more than you think to Zak." I looked up at him. "He has rung here constantly looking for you" he pointed to Nellie who was agreeing with him.

"Whew. Um I'm going to visit my parents, thank guys" I walked off and wandered down the hill.

I sat by their graves and cried to myself.

"What do I do? Where's Jane when I need her!" I threw a rock into the bush. 

"Ouch." I heard someone squeal from the bushes, I got up and ran towards the sound.

"Good aim Tills" Jane turned around to me, she looked horrible. Her skin was grey and it looked like she hadn't slept for years, maybe or little argument caused her this.

"Jane. Are you okay? Where have you been?" I rushed up and hugged her.

"Tilly have you read the letter?" She looked serious.

"How do y-"

"HAVE! You read the letter?"

"No. How do you know?" I pulled it out from my bag and held it in front of her. "Jane."

"Tilly I'm not Jane." She took the letter and held it against her, they way she fumbled with it was like she knew what in entailed. She outlined the writing on the envelope and I could hear her gear up. "Why haven't you read it?"

"What do you mean you're not Jane, you lied to me? Who are you then, I can't --" and there it was. The reason why know one knew who she was, people thought I was weird when I was with her. Jane was in fact Leigh.

"Leigh" I breathlessly spoke. "I don't get it."

"I had a dream to see Zak happy and the day I was buried was your first day and I remember how sad you were, you were lost like Zak. I watched you for months and decided Zak needed to meet you, why would Zak suddenly show up here? He never wanted to see me like this, he spoke to me every now and then so he knew apart of me was alive. He needs to Tilly and you need him."

She handed me the letter. "Read it."

I sat down on a rock and opened the letter;

Her is now you, if you're reading this then my god Zak must love you without a shadow of doubt. I hope you feel the same way about him as he does about you. I needed to write this letter because I want you to know I accept you, if you can make Zak smile again, love life again and make him truly happy then I'm happy. I'm so glad he found you, he has found hope again. I wish I could've met you, but maybe I have? Maybe not in person but in a dream. The thought of you gives me hope, hope that you bring him to one day be whole again. He will be broken for some time but allow him to heal and he'll be new again, support him when he needs it and somehow I hope to be with you both, watching over you two.

Leigh.

"He loves me?"

"I see the way he looks at you, like you're the best thing that's ever happened to him and I know you look at him with fear that he could walk out at any moment. Trust me I know that look," she sighed. "Afraid to lose someone you love but Tilly, if only you could see the way he looks at you. Losing you would mean he will once again lose everything he loves."

"Leigh, I'm sorry you're gone. I'm sorry you didn't get your fairytale but I don't want to take what's yours."

"Tilly, he'll always be my first and only love but I've moved to a different life. He is yours now and you need to help him, love him and be there for him. Protect him from everything, I can finally let go now."

She got up and now I could see her for what she truly was, a ghost. She was transparent, she was glowing and she looked at peace.

"Doesn't Zak need to talk to you?" I called out.

"We'll talk and then he'll release me, I have so many things to see and do. If he needs to grieve let him grieve but comfort him with love."

She started to walk into the lake, it was like nothing I've never seen. She grew feathers and they started to flutter, this was an exceptional view.

"Tilly, don't forget me." She widen her smile and nodded, I felt happy and closed my eyes for a split second and she was gone.

Now I had to go and get my man.