Cold Hearted Princess

Chapter 3.3: The Weak Me

Then, I looked at him.

*cold stares*

"Ka-kaya ka pala ganyan..."

I didn't gave any emotions nor expression to him. I just stare at him, leaving him clueless.

I left without giving him a word.

Bumalik ako sa classroom.

[NP: Waiting outside the Lines by Greyson Chance]

You'll never enjoy your life 

Livin' inside the box

You're so afraid of taking chances 

How are you going to reach the top ?

Rules and regulations

Force you to play it safe

Get rid of all the hesitation

It's time for you to seize the day

"I will never ever regret doing this. It's me. No one will understand me. So I guess, it's okay to live like this. Even if it's miserable as ever.  And it will end up being NORMAL for you."

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Umuwi na ko.

Nauna na kong lumabas ng classroom.

[To be continued.. 

Kasi eh. Sandali lang free time -_-]

[A/N: This is the update :) ]

As I walked away, I burst into tears. Then I ran so fast.

-__- The heck. Why ?

I hate-- I hate this...

Why do I need to cry again and again with this all ever repeatition ?

I hate looking aback. 'Cause looking aback is very hurtful. 

Masakit kasi, pag lumilingon ako. Hindi ako makangiti pag iniharap ko na yung sarili ko sa katotohanan.

Hindi ko na kasi mababago yun. Hindi ko na kasi... Mararanasang maging masaya ulit.

And the most hurtful thing is, when I look back. I can't help myself but to look at it, and hurt myself again.

I just can't accept everything at once. I wish I had a delete button for my memories.

I just want to disappear along with this agonizing self.

I ran away...

As fast as I could..

I wish, I could also ran away from this flashbacks.

As my tears began to flow and it blurred my sight.

Someone hugged me..

And I felt warm. As this person continue to hug me under the pouring rain..

The warm feeling..

But still..

It wasn't enough to make me turn into someone I'm not. It wasn't enough to turn the coldness inside.

It was just for temporary. Just for now...

I may be warm.. 

For a long long time in my life of being paralyzed by coldness. I felt warm.

As my vision gets clearer and clearer.

The warm feeling turn into coldness again..

I burst into tears again..

I don't care if he care, 'cause I know he really don't.

I turned my back away from him.

As I continue to cry all over again.

This time...

I will never allow myself being attached again. 'cause all of this is just temporary.

That once in a while, someone will arrive in your life.

Make you happy for awhile.

Then, they will left you behind.

Like nothing happened.

Like there's no memories.

Like there's no YOU AND HIM.

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Nakauwi na 'ko ng bahay, nagpalit ng damit at umakyat sa kwarto ko.

Humiga ako sa kama ko.

Kinuha ko yung ipod ko. 

[NOW PLAYING: It end tonight by ALL AMERICAN REJECTS \m/]

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can't explain myself at all

And all the wants and all the needs

All I don't want to need at all ♫

How can anyone understand what I'm feeling ?..

Even I, dont understand...

♫When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight won't make this right

It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight. ♫

But I know that this won't end tonight.

This certain feeling lasts, and it never left.

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[A/n: Sorry kung ngayon lang na-update. Pasensha na talaga. Sobrang busy talaga e. :)

Anyway, highway. Magupdate ulit ako. Just wait awhile :)]