2 weeks later...
Kayshawn.
I starred at everyone in all black. I felt someone hold and rub my hand.
"You okay?" Cass asked softly.
"I'm fine baby girl, you okay?"
"Wish my little brother could be with us"
I started to chock up.
"M-me too"
She lay her head on my waist so I decided to pick her up and head into the church.
"Shawn"
I turned around seeing my dad and mum walking up to me.
"You okay?"
I nodded sitting Cass down beside her brother, JJ and Amerie.
"I think so, this is just all too much"
"You gonna be okay"
I nodded before sitting down.
"Lemme talk to you" Merie said.
I nodded standing up again following her outside the church. Where there was hella paparazzi since me, Chris and other celebs were here but I didn't care.
"Yall need to talk"
"Who?"
"You and Royalty, fuck Chris"
I chuckled.
"I will at the after bit"
She nodded then we headed back in.
"Now everyone is here we may proceed" The Priest said.
I rubbed my arms nervously feeling eyes on me. I looked over seeing Ro looking at me but the look in her eyes confused me.
"We need to talk" She mouthed.
I nodded feeling my self get a little hard from the look she was giving me. We sat and listened to the priest read scriptures from the Bible.
"If anyone has any words feel free to stand up"
Everyone looked over at each other till Someone stood up.
"Roman" Everyone mumbled.
He gave me a small nodded before taking his shades off.
"Morning everyone"
"Morning" Everyone mumbled back.
"Iyte, so yall know me as Roman, Royalty's older brother, its weird I mean I play basketball or whatever with Chris but I'm some what closer to Kayshawn, I'm sorry yall had to go through this a second time, yall day will come and I bet lil homie would have been an awesome kid"
I smiled slightly as he headed back to his seat.
"I wanna say something" Cass whispered to me.
I nodded standing up holding her hand. Everyone clapped as I picked up Cass so she was closer to the mic.
"Hi everyone"
"Hi"
She smiled.
"I just watched to say, its sad it is, me and Cj were so happy we was getting a younger brother but I guess God has him now, We love Shawn like our own second dad and we know that God will send us another younger brother or sister soon" She said before wiping her eyes.
Everyone cooed and she laid her head on my shoulder. I had nothing to say, I was still hurt. I just held her close to me and headed back to our seat.
"You brave sis" Cj said wrapping his arm around her.
Ro looked at me so I nodded. I stood up again following her to the mic.
"Sorry Shawn I just don't know if I can do it alone" She said looking up at me.
I wrapped my arm around her.
"This is my second baby death, I wondered is God punishing me for my past but everyone told me no its not" She said softly.
I wrapped her back hearing her voice cracking a little.
"I just want to be happy you know? But I know my babies are in heaven in resting up and looking over me"
I nodded feeling my self get emotional. I adjusted my shades.
"I love yall for all being here for us today...again" She said before bursting into tears.
I held her helping her off the stage.
Royalty-Ann.
I watched as everyone threw their roses on the coffin and the priest said soft words in the background. I had no more tears left in me honestly.
"Mummy" Cass and Cj cried as the coffin begun to lower.
I chewed on my bottom lip looking over at Shawn who was in bits. He knelt down before the coffin camera's flashing.
"I'm sorry I couldn't protect you Karie (Car-Ri) I'm sorry little man" He said as his dad and Roman held him.
***
"How you feeling?" Nicole (Shawn's mum) asked sitting beside me.
"A bit better, just knowing he's in a better place"
She smiled kissing my forehead.
"Shawn ain't doing so well so I'ma check on him then come back"
I nodded.
"Hi honey"
My eyes grew.
"Mum?"
"I'm so sorry I wasn't there when your first one passed"
"I-its fine"
I was just shocked she was here. He leaned over and hugged me.
"Roman is with Kayshawn, he's really torn, he's been through a lot"
"I know" I said shaking my head. "I acc need to talk to him"
"Go on baby" She said smiling softly.
I picked up my bag and headed outside the hall seeing everyone trying to calm Shawn down why paparazzi just snapped their stupid camera's.
"Come on" I said dragging him.
All the guys laughed as we walked over and got in my car.
"Where you taking me?" He mumbled wiping his eyes.
"We need to talk privately and you need to calm down"
He nodded wiping his eyes and putting his shades back down. He just sat there on his phone while I drove silently back to my house. We got out and headed up to my room.
"Like I've said before I'm sorry about all the shit I've put you through Royalty I---"
I kissed him shutting his ass up. He begun to kiss back after a while helping me straddle him.
"You need to stop with all the I'm sorry's, we in this together okay?"
He nodded before looking down at my lips and kissing them again.
