lifetimes。yoonseok

fifteen

"who's jeongguk,

hoseok?"

i was washing

my face in

your bathroom,

and when i

glanced at you,

there was an unreadable

expression on

your face that made

me hold my breath.

(how did you

know his name?)

i swallowed.

"jeongguk?"

"yes, jeongguk."

i remember him.

he was the boy

who fell

in love with me

on my fourth

lifetime. 

a kind

boy with 

a kind

smile.

(it never

worked

out in

the end.)

"i . . ."

i trailed off.

i didn't know

what to answer.

i just stood there,

looking back at

you with a dumb

expression.

and you walked away,

with your heart

caught in your throat.

i stopped you,

though, but

you were pushing me

away.

"he's nothing," i told

you while you still

struggled to free

yourself from my grip.

"listen—yoongi! he's

nothing! okay?"

and you stilled, looking

me in the eye with

anger.

"so when i disappear,

will i

become nothing,

too?"