The Darkest Bliss

Chapter one

The Sun's bright woke me up.
It was Jesta again, my house maid who had been taking care of me since time immemorial *gigs* yes since the time Mom and dad divorced and I was left to live alone while dad go on business trips and mom stayed motionless in her room.
I lost my mom the time she lost her husband.
"Loneliness filled my heart as I bagged the larger share of emotional pain that had now implanted itself in my rugged heart" -Writer.

I woke up, had my usual breakfast- Bread and eggs. Took shower and opened my wardrobe to not find any but to be confused about what to wear.
I took out my levis Strauss pair of jeans and a low cut top. Put my hair in a ponytail leaving my curls to flap through my cheeks. And put on my old pair of Oxford shoes.
I was never a dresser but I inherited my mom's beauty with my dad's blue crystal eyes. And though I hated him I thank him for making me look beautiful without any effort.

Well yes I am Ziara Williams, only daughter of Mr. George Sarah Williams, most known business tycoon. Sarah is my daddy's first wife's name. He have it as a sign of love and promise to be hers forever. Well my mamma said that daddy married her only for a child. I hate myself sometimes thinking I am the only reason why dad married mom because his first wife could not reproduce.

I took my car keys and drive off to college as I try very hard to Focus on today and not on the past.  I was meeting my friends after a long break. I missed Matt the most and his random romance.

"GoodMorning" I greeted as I met Grace at the hallway. She gives me a warm hug.
This bitch is a bitch. She can pretend like nothing happened but what about my heart? Ouch that hurt.
"I missed you Zia, i tried so much to reach you"
"Oh I was just trying to give myself some time alone. I needed to divert my thoughts from the bad tragedies." I hit back.
"Well Zia I know it has been hard but let's be good friends now, Matt and you are together and I have a boyfriend too. Let's be friends again"
"Wait biaatchhh you have a boyfriend? "
I snorted. Indicating her that I forgave like always. She seemed really happy for that one moment.
And I realised something about her have changed in these 60 days vacation.
"Anything wrong Grey? "
"No Zia I'm good. Let's go and meet the others, i can't wait to see Rusk" she blurt out as she cautiously put her hands on her mouth, regretting having said the name of her new boyfriend.
*laughs* hugs*
My icon was dating one of my dearest friend, which made me extra happy.  Also with the fact that Matt is safely mine.

"Love" Matt calls as I try to push through the scores of the mandling crowd at the notice board.
"Awww I missed you" and hugged him as I let my tears fall. Just few drop*smiles*
"I missed you more" this time intending to sound deeper and serious. That's when I realised he had also changed in these 60 days. It felt good.
"Let's go out and have a private talk" Matt suggests.
I agree and we dashed off the hallway to the wooden crafted park near the rose garden.
"Look Zia this is something important I wanna tell you"
"Proceed" I allow though I knew something was actually happening and my instincts is not, was never wrong.
"I have put you through a lot and I understand if you hate me after we stop dating"
"Stop dating?  What do you mean? " I demanded an answer. Agitated.
"I can't do this anymore, since the first I saw Adele I have felt a strong sense of love and lust, everything for her.  It was never Grey or you but Adele"
"What do I do now? " I asked. Not confused but I wanted to know how much he had known me since the last five years of being my boyfriend.
"I don't know love. All I know is you'll do much better"
"Okay Matt you may leave me alone now"I politely suggested.
He does as asked without turning back. I hoped he would but maybe I never could get enough of him and I will never be able to give him enough.

I was looking out at the window thinking about the popularity rating, i always fell at number two next to Grace Tamara. However Love had nothing to do with beauty or brains or anything other than a kickass personality and the inner beauty as most of them call it.
What is inner beauty? I scream from within.
I hated myself for being too dependent on Matt. He broke me and he is happy.
*phone rings*
"Rusk I need you" I blurted out, this time unable to control the pent up emotions.
"Yes I'm outside. Allow me in. Jesta won't open the front Porch door"
I walk down and flunked my arms around his neck as soon as I opened the damned door.

Rusk was someone I always have looked up to.  My favorite person, more like my guardian. He loved me and I  loved him back.

"Everything will be alright darling"  he finally says as he pat my back with touch of concern.
"He did it again. But this time for real" I said crying.
"You are a strong lady, you don't deserve that jerk who hangs around with all pretty girls. For five years you'd been nothing but a bag of sorrow. Move on" he encourages.
While leaving my heart to race faster. *move on* was the last thing I could ever do. 

I woke up in his arms, for the first time feeling embarrassed as his breath closely touched my lips. I moved to let myself free from his grip but his hard Hands were on my waist tighter than expected.

I positioned myself in comfort as I had no chance to loosen his grip. When he opened his eyes to look me in my swollen eye.
-God I never liked eye contact with my close male buddies, it is dangerous-
"Did I wake you? " I asked shyly.
"I need you Zia"

*loud sound of slapping*

"Leave now" I demanded.
"Listen to me. Zia once" as he put his hands on my waist again to catch sight of my eye that was in tears.
"Listen to your bullshit, i have enough of things to worry about, please Rusk, not tonight" I begged.
Bursting into uncontrollable sobs.
He hugs me from behind,  assuring me I'll be fine as he gently place a kiss on my neck.

"But love is a dangerous thing, it leaves a person either built or destroyed"- Writer.

I hope you are enjoying my first fruit. Oh well do read and leave comments, in case you have to correct me of some errors or anything of any kind. You will be warmly accepted and appreciated.
Next chapter will be published soon. Please be patient with me.
Big Love to all Readers.

Zanika Chishi