Chapter 11
AMBER’S POV
I heard people whispering, I couldn’t make out who they were.
“She’ll be fine, the doctors said so.”
“How can you be so sure?” I heard a deeper voice say.
“You just have to trust them; she could wake up any minute.” I guess that was my cue, so I opened my eyes, a hospital, fun.
“Amber!” Craig said and hugged me. I looked at Andy who was crying, he looked hurt. Then I was crushed.
“AMBER! OHMYGOD ARE YOU OK?” Hilary yelled.
“Fine.” I whispered. Craig whispered in Hilary’s ear and the two of them left the room.
“What the hell were you thinking Amber? You almost died today!” Andy said.
“I know.” I said looking down at the bed sheets with tears in my eyes.
“Amber, I love you, I can’t lose you, understand? It kills me you almost committed suicide; you need to trust that I can help you!”
“I know, I know. That’s what everyone says, but my best friend that knew every single detail about me turned on me. How can you help with that?”
“I can talk to him.” He said, kissed my forehead and left the room. Minutes later he came back with Max.
“What the fuck?” Max said. I just looked down, “WELL?” I jumped.
“Max, calm down.” Andy said.
“WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU AMBER?” He yelled getting in my face.
“Max!”
“SAY SOMETHING!”
“MAX!” I heard a new voice yell, I looked up and it was Nick.
“AMBER, STOP BEING A SELFISH LITTLE BITCH!” Max yelled in my face and left, Andy followed. I didn’t realize I was shaking.
“Are you okay?” Nick asked, approaching slowly. I couldn’t say anything, “Amber?” Then he hugged me and I flinched, causing him to let go. I could tell he was scared, what was happening? Then Craig walked in.
“What happened?” He asked, Nick whispered something to him, looked sadly at me and left.
“Amber, what happened?” I couldn’t find my voice, he just kept staring at me glumly. I hate this.
“Uh, we checked her out, she can leave anytime.” Andy said walking in the room. They helped me up and I got dressed and they led me to the bus. I got on and sat on the couch and played with my fingers.
“Amber, you need to let us in, we need to help you!” Craig said kneeling in front of me almost begging.
“You already know what’s wrong.” I said.
“You need to let it out in a healthy way. You need to show emotion and not hold everything in.” He said, he was right. I always hold in my sadness and depression and just hope it’ll go away.
“I know.” I said.
“Then why don’t you ask for help?”
“Because I’m scared, ok? I’m scared of what everyone’s reactions will be! And I know there will be nothing that anyone can do!”
“You never know unless you try.” Craig said. These words repeated in my head over and over again.
“Ok, I’ll be right back.” I said exiting the bus, sure enough I saw Max hanging out with Ronnie. I hesitated, but if Max was there he would protect me from Ronnie right? “Max, can I please talk to you?” I was about six feet away from them, kind of scared to move closer. Max rolled his eyes and pulled me to the side.
“What?”
“Ok, I’m sorry. What I said to you was true, but I’m sorry I told you in the way that I did. Things like that should be done delicately, I’m sorry Max.”
“Apology accepted, sweetie. I actually just made arrangements to get help, I’m sorry about what I did to you, ok?”
“Yea, thanks Max.”
“If you ever get put in the hospital for something lke that again I’m going to kick your ass and ground you!” He said hugging me.
“Ground me?”
“Yep, I feel I have that authority!”
“Of course you do.” I said laughing and walked away.
“See, you will never know unless you try.” Craig said, he must’ve been watching. I flipped him off and went to bed.
