Save Me From You

You Never Cared.

| One more chapter! The last chapter most likely won't be as good, but it's whatever. It's the ending of the story so I really don't care. |

-Couple Days Later

I awoke to see Chance at my bedside. He had his head down on my food table just looking at me.

"Morning, honey."

We both looked to see my mother. Or at least, a woman I thought was my mother. She looked clean. Instead of seeing the woman with frizzy, matted hair, a dirty face, and ripped clothes, I saw a woman who's hair was in a tight ponytail, a clean face, and her clothes seemed new.

"Sweetheart, how are you?"

"Am I still sleep? Did I get a concussion or something?" I asked while rubbing my head.

"No," She giggled, "it's really me."

"How can you laugh, mom? Don't you realize what happened?" Chance finally said something.

"Well, I know she was raped, Chance. But I don't want her to stay here all down and stuff."

"Mom," Chance looked her in the eyes, "she lost the baby."

I looked at him before flipping the sheets off of me. I looked down at my squishy looking stomach and rubbed it.

"I lost the baby?" Tears formed in my eyes.

They both just stared at me with sadness showing on their faces.

~*~

I lost the baby. I can't believe it. The only thing running through my mind was losing my baby. I know it may not seem like it, but I really cared for it. I didn't even know what it was because I wanted it to be a surprise.

Rodney probably wasn't as happy as me though. He wouldn't even talk to me! I wouldn't be able to read him if I had his chapter in the book of life in my hands.

I stared at him through the mirror as he came in. He showed no emotion. Something that he's drastically good at.

"What's up?"

I only stared longer. I feel like screaming and throwing things, but what good would that do?

"You okay?" He looked at me confused.

"Do I look okay?" Those were the only words that escaped my mouth.

"That's the reason I asked."

I stayed silent. I'm two seconds away from cursing him out.

"I lost the baby." I muttered.

He shot a look at me. It was like time had stopped. He wouldn't blink or even breathe!

"What'd you just say?"

I hesitated, "I lost the baby."

He let out an angry sigh and sat down, "This is the exact reason why I told you not to ride the bus!"

"I just lost my child and the only thing you can do is get on me about riding the bus?" I screamed, turning around violently to look at him. "If it wasn't for you, it would have never happened in the first place!"

"Me?" He yelled, "Forget you and the baby!"

"I knew you didn't care." I whispered.

"What?" He yelled again, "Speak up! You want to act all tough, say it with your chest!"

"I said I knew you didn't care! All this time, you never cared! But it's all good though. The baby's gone! At least now you don't have to worry about the guilt you'll feel later for not raising your own child." I turned back around with my head down.

"Taiah, I-"

"Taiah what?" I yelled, "Taiah what! What do you want to explain to me? The reason you never cared for me? The reason that every time I really needed you, you weren't there? I got raped twice since I've known you, and each time, you could've stopped it! All I ever wanted was to be with you. I didn't care about being your girlfriend. I just wanted to be around you. You made me feel safe. I should've learned my lesson the first time."

He came up to me and placed his hands on my now empty stomach. I felt a pain in my heart when he touched me there.

"Yeah? Well I wanted you to be my wife. I know I wasn't there. That's flaw on my behalf. But at least I tried to be. It takes two to maintain a relationship. I tried to stay with you, but every time, you pushed me away. I know I was always with Tasha, but that was just a front. I never brought her around my crew, and when I did, she stayed her distance. She don't even know Sparky and them on the real like you. I love you."

"I love you, too." I say as tears fall down my face.

"I never wanted to hurt you. I did care for the baby. We were both just in the wrong state of mind at the wrong times."

-Next Day

"Darrius, Kareem, get out!"

"Chill, Taiah. We just came to see how you were doing." Darrius said.

"Yeah, Tai. I mean, I know I did the same thing, but I'd never take away your child. That's just low." Kareem added.

"You what?" Darrius looked at Kareem.

"Oh..." He bit his knuckles.

"Hold up, you did the what thing? You telling me you raped her? Are you serious, bruh?"

I just sat there. Darrius was a bad boyfriend, but at least he cared about me in some type of way. He always got defensive when other boys got excited about me. At least Kareem will get what's been waiting for him. Karma's a trip.

"How many times?" He looked between us two, "I said, how many times?" He yelled.

"More than enough." Kareem choked out.

"What's more than enough?"

He whispered something in his ear and he glared at me, "And you ain't tell me?"

"By the time I got bold enough, I didn't think you'd believe me. The first time, we didn't really know each other together, and the second was when we'd broken up and I was messing with Rodney."

"What about the third and fourth?"

"What third and fourth?" I looked at Kareem, "What is he talking about?"

"I um... You were drugged."

"You must've liked that. I can't believe you." Darrius said.

"Why would I like that? Being raped by someone I didn't even know? And to top it all off, his best friend laughed at it. I know he told you. I was in the car when he did. You looked dead at me and laughed. Just because he didn't tell you all the details, doesn't mean anything."

He looked away.

"No, don't look away. Look me dead in the eyes and laugh like you always do. As a matter of fact, just get out."

They walked out, purposefully bumping into Rodney, "Chill with that, man, before y'all get a silver bullet in your heads."

He looked over at me, "And what they doing up in here anyways?"

"Just some drama."

He sat down next to me and I sat up, "Do you know who did this?"

I looked down. I do know. I just don't want to talk about it. It scares me. I have nightmares because of it. I'll never dream the same. I can't even think the same. Every time someone touches me, I shiver.

"Taiah, please. If you know, just tell me."

"What are you going to do to them?"

"Don't worry about that."

I took a deep sigh, "It was-" I looked at the door to see Drew, AJ, Sparky, and Magic, "I don't know," I shook my head, "I couldn't see their face."

He looked up at the guys, knowing it was one of them, "A'ight. It's cool if you don't remember. No stress."

"Why you asking her questions? Ain't that what the cops supposed to do?" Drew asked.

"Cause I want to know. She my girl, right?"

"Yeah."

"How you doing, baby girl?" Sparky asked.

"I'm ugly." I pouted.

"No you're not." Magic smiled.

I scrunched my nose up at him, "Don't lie to me. That's the worse thing to do to a girl."

"He's not, you're still pretty." AJ chimed in.

All the while we talked, Drew stared me down, and Rodney stared him down.

~*~

"Bye, guys." I smiled.

"Bye." They all sang.

Everyone but Rodney and Sparky left. Sparky stood over me with his arms crossed, "Who did it?"

"What makes you think I remember?"

"I know you, Tai. You ain't slow."

"Not only that, but you were just about to tell me before they came in. Who was it?"

"Candice."

"Candice? Your roommate that tried to su- I mean..."

"That tried to what?" Sparky said and we both looked at him.

"Um... Home girl likes me. That's all I can say. But, I swear, I didn't do anything with her."

"And I thought Tasha was trifling." Sparky said.

"No, don't even trip." I told Sparky while not taking my eyes off of Rodney, "He gone get his. Just like everybody else."

"But I didn't even do anything with that girl. You see how every time she was around, I stayed away from her."

I shook my head, "I really don't even care anymore. It's over. Everything is just over, Rodney."

"So you don't want there to be an us?"

"Your words, not mine."

He sucked his teeth, "Fine then. Forget it."

"Rodney, let me talk to you out in the hallways right quick."

They walked out and talked for about half an hour. By the time they came back in, I was half sleep. I felt Rodney's lips on my forehead and heard Sparky say, "Goodnight, baby girl," before they left.

| She lost the baby...

Who did it?

Kareem and Darrius claim to not have done it.

She swears it's someone out of Sparky, AJ, Magic, and Drew.

Why was Drew getting defensive?

Her mother isn't an addict anymore. Where are her sisters?

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