QUEERLY ANXIOUS

Lies?

This is going to be a really long post I'm sorry.

I'm really confused right now regarding my gender, and I'm not sure how to word all this without offending anyone, so please don't take anything I say personally. I don't mean to offend.

It's probably a really touchy subject, but have any of you ever magically switched?
Like, strongly felt you were one gender for a very long time, and then went back on your decision to physically transition because you suddenly didn't want to become who you thought you were for so long?
9 months ago I came out as gender fluid. At the time I'd been experiencing gender dysphoria and questioning my female identity for a few years off and on. After finally coming out and working very hard to live my life and present as who I was, I was happy for a while. I felt so good when my chest was bound and I thought I looked masculine enough, and when I was gendered correctly. All I wanted a month ago was to come out to my family who I've been afraid to tell all this time.
But now, I'm feeling that I relate more with my feminine aspects and I'm becoming more comfortable having a female body - as well as just feeling fuckin' weird when I wear my binder. The more I think about transitioning now, the more I don't want to.

Is this normal? I know there are shitty people who will claim that I did this all for attention and they knew I was "faking it."
I'm scared as fuck to come out again as a cis female, because of transphobes thinking it's always just a phase. I don't know where to go from here. At the moment I identify as Non-Binary but I'm starting to consider that I'm more fluid than I thought?

This is scary and confusing.

Listen to: Stronger than you -alternative version by NateWantsToBattle

~ Jett