|Ignore| Carl Gallagher

Chapter 16

Carl's Pov
{2 days later}
We went to her funeral, that her mom set up. Surprisingly. Our whole family except for my fucked up dad, was there. We all had hopeless faces. We were all sad because she was a big impact on our lives. 
A few moments later we said our last goodbyes, I walked up to her beautiful sleeping face, it was blank. I kissed her cheek and my teardrop landed on her arm, I put a picture of us in her casket, it was when we were kissing on the Ferris wheel before she died. I can't live with myself I feel like this is all my fault. I whisper into her ear that I'm sorry. I walked back to my seat when all of the Gallagher's followed me back.
Her mom got up to speak.
"Hello ladies and gentlemen, today is not the best day of our lives but Nicki will forever be in our hearts, I know she hates me and never wants to see me again but that's ok because I will always love her, I haven't been the best mom, I haven't even been a mom but I want you guys to know that I really love her and not talking to her for 6 years was a total mistake because she had no one, I love you Nicki and you will be remembered".
Well spoken I thought but now I go up to say some words before she gets put into the ground.
"Nicki Jenkins is a fighter" I stated. "She fought depression, friends and family, just because she's not here with us today doesn't mean she hasn't fought her ass off, she cut herself and starved herself and it was all my fault, I wish she will forgive me but she is in a better place because she has a lot of battle scars and she couldn't take the scars anymore, I will always love her, we had the greatest times together, I lost someone who meant the world to me and I will never hear her laugh or see her smile but that's ok because I know she is in a better place watching over me, making sure I don't fuck up and making sure I'm not a dick, she will be there for me just like she was when she was here, I love you Nicki Jenkins you were one hell of a girl". As some tears fell off my face and the sorrow got worse we made our way outside where they are burying her.
When the casket went down I though the dirt and a letter no one will ever read only she will know what it means.
I see a girl walk pass me and throw some dirt down, I have know idea who she is but she looks exactly like Nicki my face is confused as fuck and I wonder if I'm dreaming.

Rachel's Pov
I finally came back and find my sister dead.....why?

Well.....what the hell, Nicki is dead, Carl is sad and who the hell is Rachel???? So much shit this chapter, hope you enjoyed it and give me feedback love y'all! <3
~Gabby