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Rant About My Problems (Sorry)

A few weeks ago my sister was in a bad mood. We were at her therapist appointment and I was sitting in the car waiting and she came out and beat me and almost broke my leg (it's really messed up now and I can't walk right a lot of the time). I had an anxiety attack so I went inside to be in the bathroom and be alone but it was in use so I had an anxiety attack in the waiting room so doctors came around to help. When my mom. Found out she, my dad and my sisters therapist came out and got my sister. She told them what happened and everyone started talking to her about it and they scheduled her next appointment well I sat in a chair having an anxiety attack. My mom made me stand and wouldn't let me sit for like 5ish minutes which took a lot of effort and made me almost pass out. And then we left. My mom and sister had a normal conversation well I was still having an anxiety attack in the back seat. They forgot about me basically. And then my mom asked me once if I was ok. I didn't answer. I didn't say anything for almost the whole day cause I physically couldn't, I felt too empty. That was the only time anyone asked if I was ok. I was clean for 7 months before that day and I cut that night. I haven't been clean for more than 2 weeks since, which is what it was when I first started cutting and now I'm becoming addicted again. All because of one little incident that didn't happen according to anyone. But had this happened to my sister everyone would have freaked out and told her how much they cared. She would have gotten anything she wanted and put into a psychiatric hospital, and everyone would visit her and everyone would love her. And now I'm being set back months almost years because of this one time that no body cared. (Not that they ever care but they hide it well)
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If you actually read this thank you so much and sorry for wasting your time with my rant 😋. I really hope you have a long life and are happy.