The Perrie Edwards You Knew

Chapter 5

CHAPTER FIVE ─ Perrie's Life Is Perfect

~ 7 Months Later ~

•  Persephone's POV •

She did it. She finally made her unexpected career on being with that other members of Little Mix. And here I am, on our house, about to wash the dishes. Yeah, why would a girl who's sister is one of the members of a famous girlband wash dishes?

"Persephone! Hurry up! I'm gonna cook! I don't want a lot of dishes scattered in the sink while I'm cooking!" Mum yelled. Ever since Perrie left, things got worse. It feels like she doesn't give a single crap about us anymore.

She would just send us money and that's it. She doesn't speak with us, nor try to see us. I was hoping that she would come back and get me out of here. Everything that's going around this house is getting worse and worse each and every day.

Mum is even worse than before. "PERSEPHONE! COME DOWN STAIRS! NOW!" Another yell coming from my mum's mouth. I hurried downstairs.

"Persephone Lois Edwards! I told you to wash the dishes now!" Mum kept yelling but I interrupted her. "Mum I'm tired.. The way you treat me feels like you didn't even want me at all.. It feels like I'm not even your daughter." I said. I just can't stand it anymore.

I had to let out what my heart felt all these years. Nothing will happen if I keep it hidden. I just did what I had to.

"Who said I wanted you? In case you didn't know, you are just a big mistake! You are just so damn lucky that your twin-sister loves you when she is the only one who is supposed to be here with us! Now she is in one of the biggest girlband in the world and look at you! No one would ever believe that you are Perrie Edwards' twin sister! If you weren't even here, this family would be better! If you weren't here, we didn't have to work hard to raise the both of you! If you weren't here, I didn't have to wake up all night to change your damn diaper and other shit! If you weren't here, my life would be better! You did nothing but trouble you little piece of shit!" she yelled at my face.

I sure know that tears are streaming down my cheeks. I remember what my English teacher told me; Children are supposed to be the light of a mother's life. But that's a lie. "I can't wait til the day when you move out, I just want you out of my life, you're just a problem! I'm sick of being your mother! You're nothing to me, don't you ever come to me for help, I don't give a damn about what you do anymore! You can get the adoption papers and I'll sign them for you but I guess no one would adopt a bitch like you! You're useless! Why can't you just be like your brother and sisters?! They're perfect and you're nothing! I wanted more children but I NEVER wanted you at all! You just ruined everything!" With that, I ran off. I ran upstairs to my room and cried my eyes out.

I'm tired. I'm really tired! I can't take this anymore! This is all too much! What did I even do to have a life like this?! I can't believe those words came out of her mouth! My own mother's mouth! She said that to her own daughter!

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"What do you plan on doing now? I would appreciate it if you get all of your things and head out of that door." When I came down to get water. I saw mum sitting on the sofa, watching. I didn't want to answer her.

I was expecting different. When I ran upstairs, I was expecting her to be all like oh my god! What have I done?! I just hurt my own daughters feelings! But no. I guess she didn't even cared to worry about me.

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I was just lying on my bed, staring at the ceiling when I heard my name being called downstairs. So I went for it. I heard laughter halfway though the stairs.

I peeked my head out and there, I saw the living room full of clothes, mountain of chocolates on the table, and other stuff scattered on the sofa.

And there, I saw her. Her eyes lit up and her smile got wider when she saw me.

"Pers!" She yelled and ran towards me then attacked me in a massive hug. I smiled and hugged her back.

"I started to think that you actually turned away from me!" I chuckled, pulling away and looking at her eyes that is the same color as mine.

Her sea-blue eyes is full of joy that it turned glossy from the tears forming in her eyes. While mine...well, it's probably dead and lost its color.

"I would never do that!! Oh my gosh! I missed you so much!" She squealed. "I missed you too!" I said and she hugged me again.

She cocked her head towards mum and Jonnie and our other cousins direction. They were still rummaging through the pile of clothes and chocolates.

"We'll be right upstairs." Perrie announced and turned to me smiling. She then pulled my hand towards my room. We entered inside and she shut the door behind her.

"Pers! You would not believe what I'm going through right now! It was so fun! The girls, Jade, Jesy and Leigh-Anne are really, really excited to meet you!" She said and started rambling things.

I don't know how to respond to her or how to even interrupt. I just watched her ramble things about what happened to her. By the way she tells me, I can tell that she's really happy. While me...

"Oh! I forgot to tell you! Remember Zayn Malik? That black-haired guy in One Direction?" She asked excitedly.

"Yeah.. The last time you told me, you said you're actually inlove with him." I rolled my eyes.

"He asked me out!!" She yelled and my eyes are about to fall out of its sockets.

"What??" I asked unsure. "Zayn Malik asked me out!" She squealed. I don't know if I'll be happy about it or sad. All I know is that I'm surprised about it.

I'm quite sad because she won't spent most of her time with only me but with his boyfriend as well. I still don't know how to respond.

"Uhh.. That's-uhm.. Th-that's great! That's great, Pezz!" I stammered. She frowned.

"What's wrong, Pers?" She asked worriedly. I gave her a smile. "Nothing! I'm really happy for you-"

"Is mum still hurting you?" She cut me off, frowning. "No, Perrie. She doesn't hurt me." I shook my head smiling.

"Persephone." She gave me a serious look. "Really, Perrie. She's not hurting me. I promise." I gave her weak smile.

"Then why do you look sad when I told you about Zayn?" She asked. "I'm just a little bit taken aback is all. Now go tell me about it!" I said changing the topic.

"Oh right! We we're just hanging out when he asked me out!" She then started telling me about what happened. This time, I payed attention on what she's saying.

"C'mon! I've got a lot of presents for you!" She said and pulled my hand. I don't know if it's just me or something. But I feel really awkward around Perrie.

I mean we're not like this before. We're really close before. By close I mean really close. Believe it or not, we used to take a bath together.

Don't get me wrong, you know you do that with your siblings too. And what's wrong about taking a bath together? Besides, we're both girls and we're sisters. But of course that was when we were young. 

But I can promise you that we were close before. We shared the same room before but mum said we should have our own rooms. We didn't want it at first but mum said so.

I just don't know how we got from being close to almost strangers. I don't know if it's just me or if Perrie felt that way too.

We made it to the living room and there, clothes are still piled up on the sofa. Perrie picked up some clothes and other stuff.

"This one! I bought this in London! It's actually on sale so I bought it!" She chirped and handed a shirt to me.

I wish I could buy things like these with my own money.