The Perrie Edwards You Knew

Chapter 7

CHAPTERSEVEN ─ Reflection

(A/N: Guys, please remember it's 2011 okay? XD)

• Persephone'sPOV •

I couldn't.

I don't know if I should tell her or not. I'm afraid of what her reaction would be. But I wanna know what she would say if I tell her the truth.

"Uhh.." I stammered, looking everywhere but her.

She looked at me with a mixed expression. Disappointment, anger, sadness, guilt, anxiety.

"Why didn't you tell me?? Is this really how everything's gonna be??" She yelled angrily while jolting up.

"You promised! We promised to tell each other everything! Why didn't you tell me??" She yelled.

I was becoming furious so I decided to yell at her. I despise doing that to her. Well I despise doing that. But she fucking pushed my button.

"It's not like there's something you could do!" I retorted.

"Of course there is something I could do!"

"Oh yeah?! Then what? What are you gonna do? Tell mom to stop doing that? Never come back until she stops doing that?? As if she's gonna stop!" I yelled.

Good thing nobody else is in the house but us. But I don't get the reason why she is doing this to me. She didn't say anything but stared at her feet.

"I'm tired! I'm tired of her shit! I'm tired of always being yelled at! I'm tired of being compared to you! I'm tired of being a disappointment! I'm tired of always being the wrong one! I'm tired of being myself!" I yelled.

My sight getting blurry from the tears forming in my eyes. "Aren't you getting tired of forcing everything out of me?? And even if you did, I tell you everything and still you don't do anything about it! Then you're still the one who has the guts to get mad at me?? You think this is all unfair, well it is indeed unfair!" I shouted.

I looked down at my feet when tears began to fall. "I can't live like this anymore.." I mumbled.

"Why didn't you tell me before??" She asked angrily. She was crying.

"Because I know that you won't even do anything about it in the first place!" I huffed. She looked down at her feet and sniffed.

"Pers, I'm so sor-"

"Don't." I cut her off and made my way to the bathroom.

I locked the door and rested my hands on each side of the sink and stared at my reflection.

I can't take this. This is all too much. I couldn't possibly go to that fucking hospital again if I ever had an anxiety attack again. I already have bipolar disorders, I couldn't possibly just suffer through anxiety attack.

A tear escaped my eye as I stare at my reflection. She looks so much like the girl I'm talking to earlier. But her eyes are dull unlike Perrie's. Her body is skinnier than Perrie's. The bags under her eyes are worse than Perrie's. As if she's the one busier with music and tour. Her hair is the shade of dirty blond but hers is lifeless unlike Perrie's. She looks awful. So awful that you wouldn't believe that her twin is a superstar.

She looked damaged. But that's just the outside. When will her reflection show who she is inside? She's the ugly version of Perrie. And her name is Persephone.

I turned away from the ugly girl in front of me when somebody knocked on the door.

"Persephone, please open the door." I heard a muffled voice behind the door.

"Leave me alone!" I yelled.

"Pers, please.."

"I need some time alone." I cried. I looked down at my hands that are on the sink.

"Just open the door. We could really talk this through." She said from behind the door.

I couldn't fight the urge to open the door so I did. She had a worried and a concerned look on her face.

"Can we please talk?" She asked, with hope.

"We just did." I muttered.

"Let's talk more briefly." She said.

We then headed back to my room.

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A/N:

I'll update the next chapter soon.. :) It's kinda intense so I thought I could save it for a new chapter. And guys, please remember that it's 2011 in the story. XD

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P.S. I changed the cover.. :) I hope you guys liked it. Its not that much different from the old one though..

Stay strong!