Sterek One-Shots

Help Me

#3786+words #depression #guilt Edited 23/06/2021

A/N- This is the first time I'm going with this type of plot, I'm not sure how it's going to come out but I hope it's not terrible, also this isn't going to be the same plot as the series and Stiles is nearly 18 in this - Jayne

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Stiles POV

I sat emotionlessly against my jeep, hoping that no-one has noticed me gone but since what's happened not so long ago, I can probably say with certainty that they haven't and that's fine with me, I just need space from them for a while, whenever I'm around them I feel like I'm suffocating, the way they tense up when I move around the room, or walk near them, it may sound harsh but that's how I feel, I think back to what had happened and what I had done and it made me hate myself even more, a few months ago I was possessed by the Nogitsune, which is a 1000 year old demon fox and it was called Void, it basically did horrible things to people and made me watch but not only that I nearly killed Allison, though since they found a way to help me she's been giving me death glares, you know the crazy things is, no-one even notices either, though what am I suppose to do about it, if I get angry they might think I'm possessed again, it makes me sad but then I think that I don't deserve to be sad

They're all surrounding her with care and being so kind, that they don't see that she hates me, it's not like I asked for it all to happen, I never wanted to be possessed in the first place but nope she still doesn't understand, so that's where it led me to this, leaning against my jeep over looking the town of Beacon Hills, hoping that I can wake up from this nightmare, I sighed even when I say that I know that this is real and someday I'll have to deal with the fact that my best friend Scott, who is like a brother to me will actually start avoiding me too, the only ones I seem to still have is the twins which surprised me to be honest, one day they came up to me when I was sitting in a clearing in the woods, trying to breath and they simply just sat there not even bothering to say useless things, that is what I wanted, that had given me more comfort than anything the others have tried to do, all the others do is say "it's not your fault Stiles" they never try to talk to me or include me into anything, just those five simple but useless words, that means shit if I'm being honest, but all I've ever wanted was for them just to sit there, making they're presence comfort me but that never happens they just talk an talk an talk......and to be honest it pisses me off

Can't they see that I don't need the constant chatter, I just need them, I sighed again before looking out into the distance "why are you sitting here on your own" I jumped at the sudden voice before looking to were the forest starts and there is sourwolf himself, I simply just stared at him before looking away "I wanted to be alone" I said flatly but mentally I knew he won't leave me alone, this has become a regular thing, were if I'm by myself he always finds me and stays with me until I leave, any other time I would of been angry but for some reason I feel like he understands a little about what I'm going through, so I don't make him leave anymore not that he did leave anyway {stubborn bastard} I mentally curse before going back to the view and lose myself in old memories, memories that seem so long ago now, memories that turn into my nightmares most days, sometimes they get too much for me to handle and I feel like slipping away

Derek POV

I watched as Stiles just sat there, someone would think that he's looking at the view but the sorrow and pain that comes into his eyes makes me see that he isn't, I thought the pack would help him get through this but at the moment they all seem to be more concerned about Alison, which again annoys me, even Argent has tried to talk to the boy but he just seemed to always get away from him, the others might be blind but I have seen the daggers Alison sends him, when no one else is watching and not for the first time I wonder if Scott is too stupid to see, I silently walked towards him, I could sense his pain from the loft and since no one was there, I decided to see for myself how he is whenever I've seem him out walking the woods, I just sit down beside him and watched waiting for a sign that the boy I've known for the last few years is still there, at first he use to try and get me to leave him alone but I couldn't and just like all the other times he eventually leans against me when he finally accepts my presence