Hiding My True Self- A Larry Fanfic

Chapter 6: Releasing Anger

A/N-It took this book only two weeks to reach 100 reads. Some may think that isn't a lot, but I think it is. Thanks for reading everyone! :)


Harry's Pov

I got to school still feeling the pain Zayn and his friends had caused me earlier. "Oh hi Harry." I heard Louis' soothing voice say to me once I sat down to him in first class. I tried my best to sit down with ease. My ribs were absolutely killing me. Not to mention the aching of my right jaw. "Hey Louis." I said with a sting of hurt in my voice. Looking at Louis, his smile had went down. "Harry, what happened?" Oh god, I didn't want to tell Louis. It was just too much. What would he think of me if I told him I got bullied? Probably some weak vulnerable child. The truth is, that was me on the inside. "Harry, tell me what happened." "I can't Louis. I just can't." I scooted over so I was farther away from him. "Well why can't you? I thought you trusted me. Don't you trust me Harry?" "How can I trust you when I've only known you for a day? For fucks sake Louis, leave me alone!" I grabbed my bag and ran out of the class. Louis just sat there in his seat with astonishment. "Harry, wait for me!" Running out of the class, Louis got up to go after me. Glancing back, I could tell he was losing sight of me. Suddenly, a fist connected with my stomach. I couldn't do anything but fall to the ground and groan in pain. "What's wrong with the little faggot?" Zayn mimicked at me. Liam and Niall laughing behind him. "Why do you do this to me Zayn?" I said crawling helplessly away from him. He easily walked up to me. Kicking me in my stomach. Soon the motion was followed by Niall and Liam. This time on my head and legs. The pain was surfacing everywhere on my body. Zayn leaned down to look me into my eyes. Jerking my neck so I could look at him. "Because your a fag. Your different and nobody likes you for it. Why don't you kill yourself. It's not like anyone would care if you died anyways." The words stabbed me instantly in my heart. Niall walked over to only spit on me, while Liam laughed. They all walked away after that. I was there in the hallway by myself.

Alone......


Broken......


Hurt........


Discriminated......


And judged........


Because of who I was. I couldn't help being gay. Why would people say these things about me? Tears slowly fell down my eyes. Slowly, I got up and picked my bag up from the ground. This was it. I'm tired of this. I don't want to deal with it anymore. I walked out of the school with tears falling out of my eyes. The cold air came rushing onto my skin. I was by myself. Like I am always. Nobody was there. I thank my mother and Gemma for what they've done to help me, but it wasn't enough. I was sick of the bullying, name calling, and getting singled out because of who I was. Because, because of who I am. I couldn't change it. This was me. I sat quietly on a park bench to myself. The environment around me was so quiet. Filled with serenity and peacefulness. My shoulders slumped down in defeat. They tensed back of once I felt that feeling from yesterday. The feeing of


Warmth....


Compassion......


Protectiveness....


But most importantly......love.


"I finally found you. I looked forever to find you." Louis said huffing loudly. Trying to catch his breath. "You were looking for me?" "Yes Harry, you had me worried sick for you." He sat down beside me. Grabbing my hand. Louis' hand radiated with warm air. It put a sense of calm into myself. "Why is this happening?" I said aloud. "Why is what happening Harry?" "You, why are doing this? What do you want from me Louis?!" Louis looked at me in shock. "I-I don't want anything from you Harry. Why would you say that?" "Because your always there for me. We barely know each other! Why are you trying to hurt me!? What the fuck did I do to you?!" I jumped up from the bench. Letting go of Louis' hand. I was filled with adrenaline. Louis was just in awe. He had never seen me like this. "H-Harry, I'm not trying to hurt you. Don't ever say such a thing! I'm here for you!" "But why are you here for me?! This is just confusing me so much." "Don't let it confuse you Harry. Let it happen. Just let it happen." Louis slowly put a hand on my shoulder. The silence was even more known in the air between us now. I stared into his eyes, like he did me. Without thinking at all, I kissed him. Kissed him with so much, so much


Force......


Anger......


Passion......


I could ever have in my body. Louis didn't pull back at all. Lust was in the air among us. Something that shouldn't happen. I had to stop it before anything tragic would happen. I pulled away from the kiss. "No, Harry, I want more." Louis said while grabbing my waist and chin so I could look at him face to face. "I can't Louis, they'll hurt you if your even around me." Picking up my backpack, I started to leave. "Who, who will hurt me Harry?" "It doesn't matter who. I just know they'll hurt you. Just stay far away from me okay?" "I can't Harry. I want to be with you. Just tell me who these people are." I started running away. "Harry, don't leave me!" Louis yelled. I scrunched my eyes together so the tears wouldn't fly out of my eyes. Those were the same words I told my dad before he left.


Don't leave me.......


A/N-Whoa, this chapter was good. I can't believe I wrote it. Stay tuned for more wonderful chapters later on. Comment please also! :)