The Reason I Died

Moving Away

Lewis was so sweet he was like the older brother I never had.
I've always had a crush on him but I never really tried anything with him.
Once I was settled into his home I took out some booty shorts and a tank top.
As I was about to remove my clothing and get in the shower he knocked on the door and told me he would be back at 12.

Since I was home alone I thought I would walk around naked. Instead of wearing my tank top I wore my sports bra along with my booty shorts.I was very petite only because I didn't eat often maybe if I ate I'd be miss thickums.Going through puberty was terrible espically getting your pms but atleast I had cleavage unlike other girls even though they not very big.And I need to eat more so I could get my booty back I thought as I walked into the kitchen.I ate his whole fidgerater I hope he isn't angry when he gets back as I was about to walk away I trip and almost fell and instead of feeling a hard cold surface I felt masculine hard tight abs.

As I looked up into Lewis light brown eyes he looked into mines and we immediately connected. We both had this lustful look in our eyes he reached down and rapped his big hands around my skinny fringers.
And we just stood there and stare at eachother.
I never felt this anxious before I needed to get away it just felt weird.
I walked away from the whole situation and sat down on the couch and started watching a scary movie.

"Can I sit down"he asked
"Ain't nobody stopping you"
"Oh ok"
When he sat down he moved really close to me I'm clastophobic but I loved the feeling of him next to me I felt safe and protected.
As we watched the movie I would get scared and hug him until the scary part was over I could tell he likeded it though.
As the moving was coming to an end he forcefully grabbed my face and turned it to his direction.

"There's something in your eyes but I can't put my fingers on it. First it was lust but then it changed to fear.Are you afraid of me?"he said.
As he spoke he slowly slid his hand up my thigh right before he touched the pumpum I removed his hand and went into the guest room.And there I cried not because he touched me but because of all those other times those bastards took advantage of me.

I want to show him that I'm normal that I can show him affection but my past and meomories won't allow it.I brushed my teeth than cried myself to sleep.

"No please stop,mom help me I need your help"
"Shut the fuck up and take this dick"
"Daddy please stop your hurting me"
"Shut the fuck up"
"God please make him stop I can't take it nomore "

I woke up from the nightmare screaming and crying I was overwhelmed. Lewis came bussin through the door with his gun.
"You ight"
"I'm ok I just had a bad nightmare"
"Oh ok I thought somebody was in here stringaling you or some shit...I'm going to bed"
"Please don't leave me alone"
"Ok I'll sleep in here tonight"

He shut the lights off and got into the under the covers but before he sleep he kissed my forhead and said
"I won't hurt you like your past I'll treat you differntly"
"I can't give you love I'm fucked up in the inside and Im fucked up in the head"I said
And just like that we both fell asleep.

The next morning I woke up to breakfast in bed with a note that said I'll be back in the afternoon enjoy your meal babygirl I LOVE YOU. That same afternoon he told me to pack up that he would be taking me to newyork to see his sister Amy.

So I packed up all my shit and left tanieyah at Lewis house once I get to newyork I'm Diamond. We got on our flight the next day and was headed straight for newyork soon as the plan landed we rushed off in a hurry.
I seen Amy standing at the airport waiting for us I was afraid of what she would think of me so I begin dragging my feet a little.

"Omg tanieyah I missed you sooooo much"she said with teary eyes.
"I missed you too but my name is Diamond now"
"Says who"Lewis asked
"Says me "I responded
"Well let me reintroduce my self Diamond Hey I'm Amy and I'm your old bestfriend"

And just like that me and Amy's relationship rekindled.After Lewis got me settled in to his sisters house he left.
I'm glad he left his phone number behind because I still wanted to Thank him for everything.

The phone rung a couple times before he picked up and our conversation went a lil something like this
"Thank you for everything"
" No problem I miss you already"
"When are you coming back"
"I'll be back soon just call me whenever you need me"

I felt so good inside I finally had a home and I'm might pull the whole Diamond thing off I thought to myself.
Diamond is going to be smart,talented,and a fighter.
She's going to be everything tanieyah couldn't be.
Moving away was the best thing I ever did.