INSOMNIAC ✃ JIMIN

E P I L O G U E

❝ Please don't cry,
Just because we had to part.
As long as you remember me ,
I'll live in your heart.❞

The blue sky seemed dark that day, as the clouds were heavy with rain ready to fall on Earth. The cold wind acted as foreshadow of the soon-to-come heavy rain. It was quiet, considering how there was only one person at the graveyard that day.

A beautiful girl with long, black hair stood in front of a grave, her face showed no emotion at all. Her hands fidgeted slightly, as she held a big bouquet of flower in them. Roses, that was his favorite flower.

The sound of crows flying in the air was the only thing she could hear. The sun was about to go down, but she didn't care. All she wanted was to stay with the one and only boy who owned her heart. And still is.

❝ Please don't cry,
When you're sad and weak.
I'll be there,
To kiss you on the cheek. ❞

The sudden ringing of her phone startled her, as she wiped the non-existent tears on her cheek. She quickly fished out her phone from her pocket, her eyebrows rose, looking at the contact name.

"Jungkook?"

Answering the call, she put the smart phone near her ear, listening to the other line speaking. Her mouth curled up into a smile as the boy's voice sounded full of worry. This kid, seriously.

"I'm fine, Kookie-ya. I'm just, you know." She crouched down to the ground as she spoke, brushing the dirt on the tombstone away. A single tear slipped out of her eyes, although she had been holding the urge to just wail loudly in front of the deceased boy's grave. But she couldn't, she had to stay strong.

"Don't worry, I'm at the graveyard right now. I'll be back soon, promise."

The call was disconnected shortly after that, leaving the girl with the deafening silence once again. She sat down properly, facing the tombstone of the grave in front of her, mustering a tiny smile.

"Jimin-ah, it's me, your girlfriend."

Warm tears ran down her face as she said those words, but her mouth still remained as a tiny smile. She licked her dried lips, still trying to stop the tears from running down her cheeks. If you're here, you would've laughed at me for crying, right Jiminnie?

She let out a sad laugh, not bothering to stop the tears anymore. She had to cry, the pain in her heart was too much to control. The pain of knowing she couldn't see the boy's breath-taking smile anymore hurt her heart. Hurt her soul.

He was always there for her, no matter what was happening. He was the one who consoled her when she was down, the one who cheered her up when she felt like killing herself.

What she did a week ago caused him to kill himself, she realized that. She knew how much Jimin loved her, how much Jimin couldn't handle the pain of not having her by his side.

When he asked for a break up, she couldn't believe her ears. She thought he was joking, but no. He was being serious. But even after that, she kept trying to meet him, looking at him from far away. But still avoided meeting him directly, because she was afraid he didn't want to have anything to do with her anymore.

She was scared, afraid.

She couldn't live without him, and he couldn't live without her. They both knew that. But they both still screw up.

She really regretted what she did. She was a fool for making a decision that she knew will hurt Jimin more, will torture Jimin more.

She wrote a suicide note that day, planning to kill herself to stop the pain from controlling her brain. She left the note on her bedside table with a letter to Jimin that she never knew he got it or not. She really hoped he got that before he died though.

But when she went up the building of her old school, ready to jump off to end her life, a certain dark brown haired boy stopped her. It was Jeon Jungkook.

He managed to stop her from committing suicide, and brought her to his house that he shared with his step brother, Yoongi. She had been living there for the past days, away from all of her friends. The both of them had become her family, the people who cheered her up whenever she was feeling down.

But they both couldn't replace Jimin. No one could, and no one ever will.

Only his smiles alone could make her feel happier, but now that he was gone, she felt empty. Alone.

"Aigoo, you know you look ugly when you cry right?"

The sudden voice beside her caused her head to turn to the source of the sound, her eyes widening as she saw the boy in front of her. At that moment, she was certain her brain had gone crazy.

"Yah, why are you looking at me like that? I know I'm handsome but hey, stop staring please," the boy said again, a wide smile plastered on his face. He chuckled as his hand touched the girl's face softly, caressing her. The boy's face looked pure, it was as if he was glowing.

"I missed you, you know that, right?" The boy whispered, his hand was still caressing her cheek. The girl was frozen. She couldn't believe her own eyes, but she decided to savor the moment when she had the chance to do so.

"Yah Park Jimin! Why did you leave me you dumb!" She screamed at the top of her voice as she lunged forward to attack him in a bear hug. Jimin let out a chuckle, hugging her back, resting his chin on her shoulder. He breathed in, appreciating the smell of her perfume that he chose for her a while back.

"I'm sorry for being a fool, I love you, and you know that right?" Jimin could feel her body shaking as he hugged her, signalling that she was crying her eyes out. "I-I know that, you du-dumbhead," her voice cracked, cheeks wet with her own fresh tears.

"I told you that you look ugly crying, aish this girl never listens to me," Jimin patted her head, his thumbs were brushing off the tears on her cheeks gently.

"Look, I don't have that much time with you, even though I want to stay here with you forever, I can't. I'm sorry," his voice became slower and slower, as he was holding back his tears too.

She let go of him and looked at the boy in front of her in the eye, waiting patiently for what he wanted to say.

"You have to move on, okay? There are a lot more guys on this planet who would deserve you more than I did. I am such a lucky guy who can have you as my girl, as someone I can call my girlfriend. I don't want you to cry, to hurt yourself just because I'm not with you anymore. Stay strong and keep living, for me. Find a guy who can make you happy, more than I ever did. More than I will ever do. I believe you can do it, you're a strong girl and I know that. I love you," his eyes were watering too as he pronounced those words, his body fading into thin air and lastly, he disappeared. He was really gone now.

"I love you too Park Jimin, and I will always, keep you in my heart."

❝—Why do our love,
Can't be like fairy tales?
Why do our love,
Can't have a happy ending?
Maybe because this is reality,
You and me are never,
Never really meant to be.❞

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Oh my god that's so long lmao
Believe it or not, but that was 1220+ words lol