INSOMNIAC ✃ JIMIN

Night 9

넌 거기 있지만,
You're right there but,

왠지 닿질 않아?
Why are you out of my reach?

4:37 a.m

The silences of my lonely nights are slowly killing me, but the emptiness of my heart are worse than that.

I realized what I did.

I dumped you.

I left you.

I left your side, locking myself inside a non-existent Pandora box.

I'm evil. But I'm not a monster.

I'm just a hopeless human who fell in love with an angel, a beautiful angel on Earth. A weak human, who doesn't deserve the love of a human he loves so much.

It hurts me, not having you by my side.

But what can I do?

You're so close, yet so far. Your shadow hunts me in my world, seeking me for revenge, because I hurt you, and I am sure you hate me now.

But baby I can't.

I can't live without your sweet smiles, your music-like laughs, your cute pout, your angelic voice, your graceful dance, your everything.

Maybe, just maybe, you're crying your eyes out now, because of me, I'm sorry.

I broke your trust because I'm a coward. I'm scared of losing you when you're bored of me. I'm scared of what people would think, if I stay by your side.

Enough with the weird stares, you don't deserve to be with a pathetic man like me. You deserve more, as I always think and will always continue to think. Your tears are precious, don't spill it on the floor just because of a man like me.

Move on, and live with a guy who will guarantee your happiness, make you laugh harder than I did, fill every second of your life with laughter, warmth and love.

But I'll never forget you baby, because you're the reason I became a person. You treated my wounds, you were with me in all of my hard times and I absolutely appreciate that.

So I'm letting you go, to live your own happiness, even if a human named Park Jimin will not be in your life anymore.