Im Not Loved (1D) *ON HOLD*

Can this get better?

KALI'S POV

First few days living with of mice and men weren't that bad. Not the way I expected, but not that bad. My relationships with the guys are amazing. Especially with Austlan. (If you don't know what Austlan is its Austin & Alan's ship name) they're like the best friends I could ever have. Better then being with Niall all day. Just thinking about him hurt me. Especially when he called me a whore. You never, what If I am one? Well, the chances are slim, since Harry attacked me, & it wasn't my choice to make out with him. I think: what have I done to deserve this? What have I done to be put in this hellhole I was previously in? I blink again just to forget about it. It's in the past.

'The past can hurt...' -Rafiki ~the lion king


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'Soo Kali, what drove you over here?' Came suddenly out of Phil's mouth.

'Erm, my ex called me a whore..' I said out, more on a quiet volume.

Alan's mouth dropped and walked over to give me a hug. I hugged him back.

"how can he? That's horrible!" Alan exclaimed

'I-I don't know..' I said back, tired.

I'm gonna go to bed. My head is spinning, and just overall tired. I just want to be ok.

___Next Day___

I woke up to snoring. I looked over the corner, to find Alan. With about 7 empty bottles on beer near him. That's normal, i hope.. 

Over the 3 months I've been here, Alan and I have come closest. After this thinking, I didn't notice that Alan was awoken.

'Kali? What's wrong, you're facial expression isnt looking good.."

I was falling for him. Hard.

'A-Alan?' I said.

Yes Kali..?" He said, worried.

'I love you Alan...' I said. 

Oh my god, what did I just say? I had no control over what I've just said. My jaw dropped open, and I ran. I don't know where, but I ran. Until I couldn't see the bus anymore.

'Kali..?'

No, not again...

A/N OMG I'M SO SORRY ABOUT MY ABSENCE. I WAS GROUNDED AND JUST GOT MY LAPTOP BACK. Tomorrow I have no school, (Friday) and then I have the weekend, which means expect more updates!! Who do you think Kali bumped into? Cliffhanger ;) 

WELL I love you my babies and I'll try updating tomorrow and generally updating more often.