The Thoughts

Ch. 4

When I got inside I turned around and locked the front door again then properly put my stuff away in my room. I was hungry, considering that I didn't eat at all today. So I went to the kitchen to fix something small to eat. I normally just don't eat all day then when I come out of my room and my family is having dinner I can eat that and not grow even larger. After I ate I plopped on my bed and dozed asleep.

~dream~
I was in a car. It felt so familiar but so strange. I then looked around and instantly knew where I was. I was dreaming about a time in my past when I was young, those times haunt me the most. I was in my mom's old car. I remember it well, I was the oldest so I had to sit in the back on the far right side because there was a hole in the floor where rust had broken through. Mom thought it was safer to have me there since I was responsible enough to handle the precautions. In this particular memory we were going to a hotel we were currently staying in and have been for a couple weeks. It was Christmas eve and we were returning from the dollar store were I had to steal some toilet paper from the bathroom while my brothers made conversation with the man up front and my mom shoved some food in her purse we had to buy something so we didn't look suspicious so mom got some beer for her boyfriend. We paid the man then left quickly. I was used to being quick and careful. That was how we survived. As we got in the car mom turned to look at me. Her eyes were blood shot and droopy. She gave me a weak smile showing her yellowing teeth. That's how she showed her appreciation for helping her through hard times. When we got to our current hotel I slowly unloaded my jacket which was filled with toilet paper and a bag of candy for me and my brothers to share.
"Thanks twitch" Daniel my first brother said. He called me twitch cause even though I was young I had terrible anxiety so I twitched and shook a lot.
"Yae thank you sis" My youngest brother Stan said. I smiled at them then walked over to the bathroom and locked the door I took money out of my sock that I have been hiding in case of emergency. I still had all sixteen dollars. I sighed in relief and rolled my sock back up. I flushed the toilet to make it seem like I was using it then washed my hands and walked out. My mom and her boyfriend were waiting for me to get out so they could 'take care of business' which either meant they were gonna do drugs or have sex. I sat down next to my brother in our blanket fort I told them to build. I heard a calm knock come from the door and I cautiously opened it to see the manager. He smiled at me in pity seeing what I looked like, my hair was in a greasy ponytail, I had a red T-shirt with holes in it, jeans with rips in them and shoes that were falling apart.
"Where is your mom Sterling?" He inquired.
"I'll go get her" I said quietly. I didn't want to interrupt anything because moms boyfriend Mike can get loud. I knocked on the door twice and waited.
"WHAT!" I heard Mikes voice boom .
"The manager wants to talk with mom" I said in a calm voice.
"Oh....she will be out in a minute OK kiddo?" He quieted down.
"K" I replied shortly. I walked back over to the door to tell Tom.
"She said she will be out in a minute she is in the bathroom" I smiled." Are you short handed this week I can help." I beamed he always gave me work when he was short handed.
"I don't think so. Sorry Sterling." He said uneasy.
"That's OK." I said positively. My mom then strutted out of the bathroom and over to the door standing beside me.
"Tabby can I talk to you and Mike outside." He said with a weak smile. They walked outside and then I heard yelling so I told my alarmed brothers to stay in the fort until I come back. I opened the door revealing my mom and Mike in handcuffs I ran towards the police officer handling my mom and I pulled on his shirt and begged him to stop. He did but he just looked back and then I felt hands grab my shoulders. I was screaming and kicking and when I got loose I went to get my brother only to find they were in a car waiting for me to join them. All I could do was scream for my mom. I wasn't thinking properly.
~end of dream~
I woke up in a cold sweat screaming mom. Realizing it was only a memory I calmed down. I walked over to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I was pale from fear. I put a wet towel on my face to wipe away my tears. I then caught a glimpse of a shiny object in the corner of my eye.
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Sorry for the long chapter but these are mostly actual memories just names changed. Hope you enjoyed.