*WARNING*
TRIGGERING
I slowly picked it up and examined it. It was cold and smooth on my warm fingertips. I could see specs of blood from last time. I knew I had to because I deserved it. Fat. ugly. different. Those are things I knew I was. Those were the reasons people teased me. I messed up by stuttering at school so they discovered I'm a freak. That's another reason. I hovered the metal over my wrist. I couldn't wait any longer. I bit my lip and sliced once slow and deep. Not deep enough for stitches but deep. I examined the wound and continued. I cut slow but not quite as deep as the last time. Then I cut again, this time fast, and again and again. I let out a breath I didn't know I was holding and put the metal back where it belonged. I looked at my arm and counted 5 cuts that seemed satisfactory for my punishment. I cleaned up my arm, floor, and counter. I retreated to my closet to get a sweatshirt, then I collapsed on my bed falling asleep immediately.
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I woke up and looked over at my clock. 5:30. I had slept a while but not as long as normal. I sat up in my bed and swung my legs over the edge. I went to the kitchen to find my mom cooking dinner. It smelt so good and my mouth started to water.
"Oh good you're up, dinner will be ready soon, will you set the table?" my mom said only slightly glancing at me.
"Ye" I wasn't one to speak often unless around my best friend Salem. She was always so kind, understanding, and encouraging to me but she and I had moved around the same time to different places. I could only text her when she was online though and that was rare. I had minutes and data from a refill card on my phone which meant it was not very good at all. I finished the table and saw my mom setting up the food in the middle.
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We ate dinner normally and then I went back to my room again not wanting to converse with my family. Knowing they would ask how my day went. I did not want to talk about today at all. After thinking about things to do i ended up just going back to sleep.
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Authors note.
Hi guys. Sorry it's been such a long time I had things pop up and wasn't able to access wattpad. So ya hope you enjoyed.
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