If I can I will

Chapter 1

All I remember that day of the car crash was the pain... I ended up breaking my arm and ribs,plus my skull was fractured and the concussions were the worst. but the worst pain came in the hospital after they knew how badly injured my body was. I remember laying in my hospital bed when the doctor came in

"I'm sorry miss Clarkson but your mom..."

" she... What. Finish your sentence."

"She didn't make it "

I was crying my vision was blurry with my hot tears. I didn't believe it. Why was she gone? She can't be gone. If im here why isn't she here! My mind was racing whatever the doctor had said to me went in one ear and out the other. I stared down at my hospital bed. Not caring enough to wipe my tears with my good arm. that's when my dad came running in my room. the doctor then took him outside and told him. My dad loved my mom as much as I do. Even more.

my dad came back in my hospital room and all I saw was the sadness and pain in his already crying eyes, he came over and hugged me as the world depended on it and we both just cried.

"Ally? Ally!" My dad called me.  dad moved us from our old house, it was too many memories for us to handle, after that sad year dad and I are closer, but after the accident I got weak. I stopped eating as much; I just lost my appetite and any mention of my mom will make me cry. I don't sleep well, I'm really skinny.

" What!?" I said panicked " I was just talking about how you're becoming sixteen this year at school and you zoned out and started crying, are you okay Alley-cat? He said with concern in his voice, " I'm sorry I was just thinking about her " I mumbled as I wiped my tears off.

" well get done eating and go to bed you have school tomorrow " he got up and washed his dishes and went to bed. I did as I was told and took a quick shower brushed my teeth and went to bed I was up just looking out my window I just didn't want to have another nightmare tonight about school. I hate it there all the girls make fun of me because of the bags under my eyes and how I apparently look anorexic but I'm not! an how I cry all the time and that I don't have any friends.

After an hour of thinking of school, I fell asleep. I woke up almost every hour, my sleep was never restful. I would lay awake and watch my ceiling. The texture of the popcorn ceiling moving as I stare longer before my eyelids fell once more into unrestful sleep.

I jolt awake as my phone's alarm went off. Nooo! Ugh, I really do hate waking up to this alarm, I get up and get ready. you know the usual brush teeth and brush my white and black hair I put on a plain black shirt and some jeans and my converse. I get some cereal and leave for that bus that takes me to hell,

On the bus, I take my usual seat in the middle. I just looked out the window until I felt someone sit down. she looks nice, she had dark brown hair and tan skin her eyes were chocolate brown, I just stared at until she noticed " um... im, im sorry... I-i forgot it was bad to stare at people. I- I don't know" I said awkwardly. My old stutter coming out while im embarrassed. " it's okay sorry, I just sat down the bus is full and I'm new and I'm just confused"

"Um, well my name is Ally. I normally sit alone and you will do just fine here" after that sentence we got to school the bus stopped and I ran off. I did not want this girl to get bullied because of me. I run off to my locker but it's not like I have anything in it, I bring all my stuff home with me, I get my drawing notebook because sadly I don't have any money for a sketchbook and I don't want to bother my dad with my wishes as he is already stressed.

I look at my phone for the time and crap! I better get going the bells about to ring. I start running through the halls dogging groups of people but I know this is cliché but I ran into the popular girls. okay, I ran into Bella one of the "sidekicks" to Lilly. actually, Bella is second in command but still very mean to me

" OW WHAT DID YOU DO THAT FOR YOU FREAK !" She screamed at me while pushing me down to the floor I was about to start crying because I'm a sensitive girl that "DOES NOT" like to be yelled at.

"BELLA! stop don't you see that the Wittle baby is about to cry! oh, you look so pitiful Ally" Lilly mimicked a baby voice. by that time she said that a fucking tear rolled down my face. I hate that I cry so easily... I stood up and tried to walk away because the bell was going to ring any minute now.

" oh no you don't," Alex said pulling me back I lost my footing and fell on the floor now I do need to tell you, Lilly, Bella, and Jane are verbally mean but Alex is scary she is physically mean she loves to hurt them and just fighting in general

" I'm not done with you" she smirked while pulling me up to stand by my hair More tears were falling off my face now,

" you know you're making this so boring Ally, like I know we're in school and everything but you can at least say ow, or something or show more pain so I can be done with this..." Alex's bored tone of voice shocking me. by now the bell had rung already and Lilly, Bella, and Jane have gone to class leaving me and Alex alone, now you see Alex. is A beautiful girl. she has black silky hair and dark brown eyes with beauty marks that dot her face like stars. she's not like the other popular girls there all dress too, grown-up for my liking. " you know, I really like your hair. Is it naturally black or is white? "

wait did she? Just compliment me while she's supposed to be beating me up. she let go of my hair and helped me up from the floor. " Ally, im sorry for hurting you. In reality, I don' want to, I just don't want those bitches to think that im getting soft, ya know. she said while giving me a freaking hug

" um I-I don't. m-my hair is naturally white" I stuttered in response to being hugged by a hot girl. Who I previously thought was going to kill me. I am very confused " um.. ally can you meet me in the park after school. I need to tell you something very important. "

Alex let go of the hug she was keeping me in I nodded and she walked off to class leaving me alone in the halls very confused. But I walked to class. Overthinking everything as all ways.