If I can I will

Chapter 21

(Ally's POV)

Alex had fallen asleep while doing her night watch again,I'm worried about her, she's been acting different since... since what happened with Lora. I sit up and watch the sunrise. I grab my side only to flinch as my finger skim the surface of the sensitive skin. I get up and rub my arms as a shiver runs throughout my body , as the cold crisp morning air clings to my body. I run my fingers through my nappy white and black hair. I try to pick up Alex so she can sleep more comfortably.

I braced myself as i l tried to lift her. But she is supper heavy. "God Alex what the fuck are you made out of!." I whisper yell to myself as i now tried to drag her to the bed of flowers and leafs.  I slowly dragged her to the bed.

"Damn why are you so heavy. How the hell do you fly without rocket fuel!." I say to her sleeping form. I walk over to the fire pit, its embers were still warm so sat on our log and tried to warm myself up.

I watched the embers warm glow as my mind drifted to my dad. I want to tell him I'm safe and that I'll some how come home.i want to tell him that i will never leave him again.

Tears start to form in my eyes as i think about all the things he must be dealing with. Losing his wife. Plus his daughter to the unknown. I feel my heart ache as i remember his sad dull eye after moms funeral. His nickname for me rang happily in my old memories. I hug myself as I remember him. I left him behind. I promised i would never do that to him... my stomach felt empty and gross as the feeling of wanting to throw up  became over whelming.

I ran to a near by tree and emptied out disgusting stomach acid. I held my belly and hair as it continued.

(Willow's POV)

I lay awake in my bed holding my Alpaca close to my chest. The morning light shined brightly through my window. It's warm light comforting but i was in no hurry to get up. But i had a job to do. I pull my soft covers off of me and swing my legs off the side of my bed. The cold wooden floors make me shiver as i get off my bed. I hear my mom cough loudly again. I open my door slightly to look over at her door. It was cracked open but i could hear her heavy breathing from my room. I close my door and walk over to my dresser to get a fresh new pair of clothes. I grab them and walk to our bathroom.

The floor creaked as i walked down the halls. The bathroom was small but it worked just fine. I fill up the tub and lock the door. Locked doors make me feel safer. I starts to take off my night shirt and undergarments.  I flinch as i start to unravel the tight bandages. Once I'm done i step into the warm water. I sit in the water thinking about yesterday.

Ethan had confessed his love for me and i ran away like a coward. I could have accepted and be married off to rule this horrid town. But i never would've been happy. I don't want to marry an Elf. They are untrustworthy, beautiful but deadly. I feel the bath water start to heat up. I pull my hands out of the water. Knowing they were heating up from my emotions. A small flame flickered at my finger tips. " I wish I could just go away." I say as i stare at the little flame.

I start to wash my hair. Making sure to take care of it correctly. Washing my body was always hard with all the open wounds or stitches. I had to be careful.once i was done i got out and dried off with a soft towel. I start to pat at my cuts and stab wounds to make sure they were completely dry. I start to rummage through the bathroom drawers trying to find fresh bandages. "Come on, were are you..." i say frustrated. My hand frantically moved things around in the drawer as my other hand held up my towel loosely from falling off my body. I finally found some fresh bandages in another drawer. Finally!.

I start to put on the bandages flinching every time it lays on my wounds. Once i tucked in the last bandage. I take a deep breath as i think about my job. I work to keep this town full and to put money in my pocket for mom and me. Scavenging in the woods isn't harmful but i have to bring back useful things. Like food or rare metals. Ive been Slaking lately and now that i know i have to report back to Ethan. i don't want to work.