Learning to Love [Niam]

Chapter 2

When you feel my heat

Look into my eyes

It’s where my demons hide

It’s where my demons hide

Of all the songs that can come on, this had to be the one. I feel like this song represents my life so well, and I just don’t need this right now. At least my alarm is working again.

Don’t get too close

It’s dark inside

It’s where my demons hide

It’s where my demons hide

I quickly turned my alarm of and grabbed some clothes and headed towards the shower. Once, I felt the hot water, I started to remember everything from yesterday. I may have overreacted and I wish I had the ability to go say sorry to the guy, I wish I had the ability to talk to people in general. I need to apologize to my mother too. She tries so hard and I just go around treating her like crap, it’s not her fault that I am so fucked up.

As soon as the water started to go cold, I jump out of the shower and threw my clothes on. I tried to style my hair in a way that would look semi-attractive, but my hair was just not cooperating, so I grabbed a beanie and just left the house. I didn’t feel like eating either, besides, I was running short on time again.

I decided I wanted to walk to school instead of driving there. I wanted to clear my head and just forget about everything that happened to me today and focus on the day I had ahead of me. That’s what I wanted to do.

I saw this guy jogging up to me and it kind of looked like that Liam guy from yesterday. Please just let him jog by. Liam stopped jogging and matched my pace. Why can’t I catch a break?

He turned to me and gave me a huge smile. “You’re Niall right?” he asked. I just nodded my head. “Man, you are such a good runner! I have heard so many great things about you! You’re a legend dude.” He continued.

He waited for me to answer, but soon realized I wasn’t. I just wish he would go away, I really want to be alone and the silence is becoming awkward. He stayed with me though, on the entire walk to school, and that damn smile never left his face.

We arrived to the school and I was a bit relieved because now I can get away from the kid. I started to walk away from the guy, when he decides to put a hand on my shoulder and turned me around to say good bye.

I could feel my heart rate starting to pick up and I already knew that I was shaking like crazy. My chest started to hurt and I could feel myself starting to lose control. I looked him dead in the eye, and he looked terrified, shook his hand off my shoulder, and yelled “DON’T YOU EVER FUCKING TOUCH ME!”

With that I turned and I bolted for the first restroom I could find, so that I can empty my stomach.