why'd you come? // joshler

chapter five

(a.n. / i love when josh smiles)

he woke up.

it was 2 in the morning.

'am I alive?'

he asked to himself.

'yeah, you are,' the other part of his brain replied. he always felt like he was never alone inside his mind.

he sit up and realised that he was really thirsty. he stood up, went downstairs, and took a glass of water, drank it and went upstairs.

he took his phone.

he had just received a text.

joshua: i'm sorry i kinda disappeared for the whole day

joshua: i just had to think about it

joshua: i mean i was terrified

tyler joseph: by what?

joshua: your dream and everything

tyler joseph: ok

joshua: i'm sorry

tyler joseph: its okay

joshua: no, listen. i was terrified because it is such a scary thing. it was just a dream, i know, but it gave me a feeling that i needed to save your life. and i'm barely alive and i was scared because i felt like i needed to save two instead of one

tyler joseph: hey, im fine, you don't have to save anyone, it was just a dream

tyler joseph: i'm fine

joshua: tyler stop pretending you are

joshua: i know we both are broken people

tyler joseph: i know

joshua: i'm sorry

tyler joseph: i'm sorry i scared you

joshua: it's fine i'm okay now

joshua: why are you awake?

tyler joseph: i dont know, i usually don't sleep much if i don't take my pill, it helps me sleep for like 8 hours, but i took it at 5 pm and i fell asleep at like half past five so here i am

joshua: god i wish i could use pills too i haven't had a good sleep in so long

tyler joseph: why can't you?

joshua: i once took too many and ended up in a hospital so my doctor doesnt want to give my any pills anymore

tyler joseph: wait

tyler joseph: why did you

tyler joseph: did you attempt fucking suicide?

joshua: i did

tyler joseph: oh my fucking god

tyler joseph: why did you do that

tyler joseph: oh my god i swear i am now the afraid one

joshua: because i hate life and i hate thinking and i hate myself

tyler joseph: josh i can say that you are lovely and you dont have to hate yourself

joshua: im not

tyler joseph: you are

joshua: thank you but you're lying

tyler joseph: i will make you believe you are lovely

tyler joseph: wait a second

joshua: where are you goin?

tyler joseph: i liked the sentence and decided to write it down

tyler joseph: thanks to you i have finished writing a song, i just needed words for a chorus and i think i have it

joshua: wow, how is it called? and how does the chorus go?

tyler joseph: dunno the name yet, the chorus is something like; won't you stay alive? i'll take you on a ride, i will make you believe you are lovely

tyler joseph: i should call the song Josh ;)

joshua: if you do you'll own my ass

tyler joseph: so that means that ur ass isnt mine right now

joshua: ya want some ass?

tyler joseph: only if its yours ;))

joshua: lmfao stop flirting with me

tyler joseph: i am not flirting with you

joshua: wait

joshua: what's your sexual orientation? i think its a veeery important point

tyler joseph: i'm gay, how about you? and why is it sooo important lmao

joshua: good, im gay too

joshua: it's important because now that i know it im sure i can kiss you

tyler joseph: omg

joshua: ha

tyler joseph: goodnight josh

joshua: goodnight tyler

tyler joseph: <3

joshua: <3