why'd you come? // joshler

chapter nine

(a.n. / hey im posting some chapters today i guess)

he opened his eyes, and looked at the time.

11:54am.

"i missed it," he whispered as he started tearing up.

"well, you kind of didn't?"

tyler heard josh's voice.

he was sure as hell he did.

while still laying in bed, with a confused look, he thought he was having an hallucination.

"josh?", he softly asked.

"hey, hey tyler".

josh was sitting on a chair, so he got up to get closer to tyler's bed.

he looked at him, and smiled.

tyler asked him, "are you- i mean, am i having an hallucination, or something?"

"well, i'm pretty sure i'm real, so yeah, i'm here, tyler".

tyler smiled.

"josh, i'm so sorry. i messed up. i messed up so bad".

"you didn't mess up anything. i told you that you needed some sleep, yesterday. and we can still go out, if you feel like it's okay".

"so, yeah, you still want to go out with me?", tyler asked.

"of course i do. all that's happened doesn't change the fact that i still like you. how are you?"

tyler kept thinking about those words josh had just said, and replied: "yeah, i feel okay now, i guess. but could you quickly explain me what happened?"

"when i arrived, i thought you would be like sitting on your porch because you actually told me you were, so when i didn't see you i got like, kinda worried? i didn't know exactly why, but i felt really bad. i thought that you changed your mind and i was scared you didn't think i was good enough for you or you didn't want to see me or stuff. and so i parked my car, knocked at the door and like, your mom was kind of in tears and i calmed her, then she said that you had a panic attack and that just you passed out and were in your room, and she knew how to handle it all so she said that you were going to be okay, so she just told me that of course our date couldn't happen today, and i asked her if i could still see you, and she told me that i obviously had to wait for you to wake up, so i came in your room and stared at you for like an hour and a half, and let me tell you, you're really cute when you sleep".

tyler laughed.

"well, a panic attack and then i passed out. it sounds kind of pathetic, i was going to go out with you and passed out?"

"of course you were nervous, you were going to meet the fabulous joshua dun".

tyler smiled and threw his pillow at josh, "of course".

josh laughed and as tyler heard the sound of josh's laugh, he felt safe, he had that feeling you get when you know you're finally home after a long trip.

he thought about that feeling and immediately pushed it away, because it felt weird, to him.

josh sat next to tyler, as he smiled at him.

"so, are we doing something?", tyler asked. "i don't want to completely ruin this day, i mean, i still want to spend it with you, i guess".

"i don't want you to feel uncomfortable, so you decide".

"yeah, now i feel really okay, i promise. i think i just needed some sleep. and something to eat, i'm really hungry. but i'm feeling okay".

and he really did feel good. 

tyler couldn't stop thinking about josh's words. even after what happened, josh still wanted to see him, josh stayed and waited for him.

he thought we was falling in love, and at the same time he thought he wasn't. he really felt twisted up, inside his mind.

tyler stood up, and looked at josh.

"let's go and eat something?"

"yeah, okay", josh smiled and took tyler's hand.

tyler looked at their hands, and as they walked to reach josh's car, he felt happy.