sorry for making you wait, i was at a 4H camp from monday to thursday (yesterday), and the only thing i did when i came home and today was to sleep as i didn't get to sleep much on the camp. sorry for mistakes it's late m9
"hi, i'm phil." dan is shaking where he stands, but he decides to accept the handshake phil offers. he introduces himself whilst their hands touch, and phil's hand take a hold of dan's and shakes it with a weak smile. dan's are bigger than phil's, but phil has to be the one to take a form grip as dan is extremely nervous. "i'm sorry about your loss, dan."
dan sighs and nods slightly just as phil lets go, and he already misses the warmth phil gave him by just touching him. dan has so much going on, his mother freaking died, but all he can think about is how the boy he has been snapping and skyping with for about 2 months is standing right in front of him. it may be a good thing that he has something to distract him, but dan didn't want to meet like this.
"you boys should go upstairs, adrian and i will make us some waffles." dan looks over at phil's grandma with a weak smile, remembering the sweet taste of her waffles from an earlier occasion. phil agrees as he heads for the stairs, and dan follows him slowly as he starts to study phil's thin body from behind. "be nice to one another up there!"
"we are adults, i think we'll do just fine!" dan chuckles lightly at phil's comment, but he shuts his mouth in embarrassment. dan feels horrible for not telling phil that he is one of the howell's, it would of have been a lot easier for the both of them right now. phil looks at dan as they are on top of the stairs, raising his brows as he doesn't know where to go. "where's your room?"
"o-oh, i'll jus-" he stops himself as he looks away a little, going past phil and leads them to his room. he sighs as they enter, seeing his mess of a room still being exactly that, a mess. he kicks away some of his clothes and makes sure that the couple of boxers don't show, hearing the door shut behind him. "phil, i-"
phil steps in front of dan and embraces him, holding his weak figure close. dan reacts just seconds after with hugging back, and letting the tears that he didn't knew were there, fall. phil saw how nervous he was and how he was on the verge of tears, and he had to embrace the boy. dan isn't as confident he seemed through the snapchats, not at all actually.
dan wanted to seem confident and happy through his snaps, and he didn't want phil to worry about something as silly as him. dan feels like he deserves this, like he needs to be punished for being who he is, the boy no one likes. phil believed dan's act, he believed that he wasn't a boy who cried himself to sleep every night because of how he doesn't feel like he belongs here, but a confident guy who could be taken as a fuckboy. but phil now knows, it was all just an act.
"to think that, we actually met like this, what a shame. but dan, we met. we, you and i, we are in each others arms right now, and you shouldn't feel sorry for something this silly." dan sniffs as phil pulls away, making dan look into his eyes. "i know that if this was some kind of fanfiction, i would of have slammed you into the wall and kissed you right now, but i am not that guy."
"w-what guy are you, then?"
"a guy to take you out on a date first, of course. the slamming into the wall part can be done later." dan's eyes widen as he looks up at phil once again, and the tears have started to stop falling. dan expected phil to react badly, and to cut the contact with him afterwards. he did not expect this, not at all. "what do you say, howell? should we do this extremely cringe action, to actually go out on a date?"
"w-w-why not?" phil smiles as he sits down in dan's bed, looking around his room. phil hasn't seen such art of a room since he was in his own, and that is one month since. dan doesn't know about phil's parent being as they are, but it is for the best, at least for now. "s-so, what do you want to do?"
"let us do something as mainstream as playing mario kart?"
"game's on, lester."
i am seriously breaking the forth wall fr
but, i am seriously wondering about how many people thought i would be so mainstream to make them make out already, 'cus m8, then you haven't read my other phan-books! there will be stuff happening, and i have already decided how i want to end this book. two words, good luck
