The Last Year

Poems

It was the day after Thanksgiving and I had told Jeremiah to meet me at the lake we had shared our first at. I knew he hadn't broken up with Kate yet and I know that's because his feelings are very mixed up at the moment. So I'm taking grandmas advice and I've decided to share one of my secrets with him. I never really showed people my poems I wrote except for Christy and Kelsey but I guess if I really want something to happen with me and Jeremiah I have to start to open up to him more. He already knows a lot about me but he doesn't know the deepest parts of my mind.

It was late afternoon and the sun reflected off the lake and it all just looked so beautiful. I looked at my phone. It was currently 4:34. He was of course late. Right then his car pulled up beside my car. We both out and we met each other in the middle. "Hey." He said. "Hey." I said. We both just kind of stared at each other for a moment or two. He looked away sheepishly and asked me why I wanted to meet up. I pulled out a folder from my purse and held it tightly to my chest. "Jeremiah I want you to know who I am. Inside and out. I'm trusting you with these. They're my life." I said. He looked slightly confused. "Okay." He said reaching for my folder. Reluctantly I gave it over to him. He opened it up and started to read. "There poems." He said smiling. "Yeah ... I wrote them." I said shyly. Most of them were about him and I couldn't help but think of some of the words I had wrote in that folder:

I wish had that one person
That would hold me tight and say everything will be okay and it'll be over soon
I wish I had that person that would tell me the pain will be over soon to just give it all time
That kind of person is a myth
Perfect guys that actually care don't actually live in the real world
It's either they're weird perverted men or they just try to put you down and hurt you
Fairytales don't come true
Your knight in shining armor won't save you
And the love of your life won't comfort you
You have to be strong for yourself
You have to take care of yourself
Because you can't rely on the perfect guy who isn't really perfect at all
The person you wish for is never coming
Don't waste your tears on someone who can't love you when you could do things for yourself and you could be strong for yourself
Let the love for your fairytale go and start loving yourself in reality 

When he was done reading them he said "Mia I had no idea you loved to write so much." He said. "I discovered writing after my mom died. It helped me and it still does. I don't just wrote poems I wrote short stories too. I hope to me an author one day." I said thinking of all my beautiful writing pieces. "Mia I love this. You're going to be the best author in the whole wide world and when you publish your first book I'll  read it and when you publish your second one I'll that one too." He said. I laughed. "Would you actually pick up a book and read it?" I said playfully punching him in the shoulder. "Yes I would because it would be your book." He said. I smiled at that. It made me happy to think that Jeremiah Parker who hated to read would actually pick up a book only because I wrote it. "Can I keep these for a little bit?" He asked holding up my folder. Part of me didn't want to give up that folder. That folder was my life. It had my hopes and dreams in there. I wasn't going to give it to him until I was reminded of what grandma has said about letting him see the real me. "Yeah sure but if you mess them up I'll kill you myself." I said. He smiled mischievously and said "Mia I know you wouldn't kill because you can't live without me." I laughed and said "Don't tempt me Parker." We both smiled. I wanted to kiss him and I could tell he wanted to too but he was still with Kate.
Suddenly he put an arm on both of my shoulders he looked me directly in the eye and said "Things will be better soon. Trust me okay? It's all going to be right soon." He said. He then pulled me into a hug and said "I'm just figuring out how not to hurt her." I nodded. I was so happy I'm that moment. He basically just said he was going to break up with her. He pulled away so he could look me in the eyes again. "Trust me I'm going to end it. It'll take time because I want to be gentle but I want you to know I care for you and only you." Right then in there I swore to myself I fell completely and utterly in love with him. "Trust you. Do what you have to do. Take as long as you need to. No matter what I'll be waiting." I said hugging him tighter. "Gosh I want to kiss you." He said. "Then do it." I said. He looked at me confused. "But I thought I wasn't to kiss you until I-" he said but I cut him off and said "Right now I just don't care. All I know is I want you." And just like that we kissed. That day was the day I fell completely and totally in love with Jeremiah Parker.