Those Five Words

22.

Chapter 22

SASHA POV

I walk into our apartment with Jed on my hip and Charlie is walking next to me and I see Four sitting on the couch with his elbows resting on his thighs and his head in his hands. He looks up and he appears to have been crying.

"Four!" Charlie squeals and runs over and gives her brother a hug. "What's wrong you look sad?"

"I'm okay Charlie, I just need to talk to mum," he says.

"Charlie take Jed and go down and see daddy at work. Tell him you have to stay there until I come and get you," I say.

Charlie takes Jed's hand and I let them out of the apartment. I walk over and sit next to Four.

"What's up?" I say. I have no idea what is going on. I've only ever seen Four this upset after one of his nightmares and I know he hasn't been sleeping because I just saw him in the dining hall with the new initiates.

"It's all my fault. She is here and it's my fault. She loves her family. She wouldn't have left. I caused this. I don't know how to fix it. She will find out. She is going to hate me even more. It's all my fault," he says. He isn't making any sense. He is just rambling. There are tears in his eyes. His breathing is heavy. I am wondering why he came to me and not his dad. I may even need to get him to Simon.

I put my arms around his shoulders and give him a hug waiting until he has calmed down a little. When he finally seems calmer I pull away and say, "What do you think is your fault Four?"

"Beatrice," he says.

I've only seen him with the initiates today and we don't have a Beatrice. I always go through the files of both transfers and Dauntless-born after the Choosing Ceremony. I do this for Max he likes to know who each initiate is, their background, parents, interest's things like that. It saves him time, I know the information he wants and I make up a list of information for each one so that he doesn't have to go through the files himself.

"Who is Beatrice?" I ask.

"It was Tobias' best friend in Abnegation." I turn to see Max in the doorway. I didn't even hear him come in.

"I just wanted to check everything is okay. Charlie said Four was here and upset," Max says.

"Where are the kids?"

"Still in my office, I have Sam watching them," says Max.

Four has his head in his hands again and he is just shaking his head. "Want to tell us why we are talking about Beatrice Four," says Max.

He looks up and he says, "She is here. She transferred. She changed her name to Tris."

I am rubbing my hand up and down his back, I can see he needs comfort but I'm not entirely sure why. I know the story of how he ended up here in Dauntless. I know what bastard parents he was given but I have never heard about Beatrice. "I think someone better fill me in on Beatrice or Tris if that is the name she is using now," I say.

"When I lived with Marcus, Beatrice was my best friend. We were always together. When I moved here I had to cut all ties with Abnegation and so she thought I was dead. Today I was hoping I would see her again. Neither of us ever fitted into Abnegation even when we were little. We were always in trouble. It was one of the many reasons Marcus used to hit me. But I haven't seen her for nine years and after everyone jumped I thought she must not have come. Although Tris reminded me of Beatrice in so many ways, especially her eyes but when there wasn't a Beatrice I just had to resign myself that she hadn't transferred."