Those Five Words

31.

Chapter 31

FOUR POV

I wake up and find that Tris is still in my arms. I can see by the clock on my nightstand that it is just after ten in the morning. We have slept almost twelve hours. I am so glad that I finally got to show her the truth but there is so much more that needs to be said. I still feel heavy from all the emotion of yesterday. I'm not ready to face the day but I know I need too. We both do.

I feel Tris start to stir and I see her eyes flutter open. "Hi," I say. I don't even know how to start the conversation. Do I want to start the conversation? Can I just lie here just a little bit longer without having to deal with the reality of everything that has happened?

"Hi," she says.

We just lay here together. No words, no tears. I don't think I have any left to shed. If I could stop time just once in my life it would be right now. Why now? Because my secrets are out, my secrets are out to the only person I ever wanted to know them. Nine years I have waited to be able to tell her I'm alive. I don't think even I realised how much of a burden I had made it into. But now I have to deal with the reality of everything. Being in this silence with her is as close as I could imagine perfect to be. Because once words are spoken the magical spell is going to be broken and we will have to deal with the past head on.

"Tobias," she whispers. "I don't have words at the moment. I don't know what to say and I don't know how I feel."

"I don't either Tris," I say. "I didn't realise just how emotional this was going to be."

"We can't stay here all day."

"We could try," I say.

"I need some space, I need some time to think," she says. And as much as I don't want to let her go right now, I know I need too.

I hear a knock on the front door. Who could be bothering me this morning? Isn't everyone at work? Then I hear the door open and I know who it is. I let out a groan and say to Tris, "get ready for it."

Next thing Charlie comes bursting into my bedroom and leaps up onto the bed with Tris and I. She starts jumping up and down like she has always done not even bothered with the fact that Tris is here with me.

"Four it's nearly lunchtime. What are you doing in bed? Hi Tris," she says while still jumping on the bed.

"Come here you," I say as I grab her and start tickling her. "You really are a pain. Shouldn't you be at school?"

"It's Saturday silly," she says while she laughs.

Tris gets up and says, "I really should get going. Christina is going to wonder where I am."

"Can I walk with you? Me and mum are going for ice cream in the pit. Do you want to come Four? You and Tris could come with us."

"Another time. I'm having a meeting with dad."

"You're always working Four. You need to have more fun," Charlie says. "Tris could help you have more fun."