Those Five Words

40.

Chapter 40

Tris POV

We are walking hand in hand towards the dining hall for breakfast. I can't wipe the grin off my face. I never thought that I could be feeling the way I do right now. I know I have my fear landscape today but it is the furthest thing from my mind. I never knew that I could feel this way. I never thought I would feel this way.

Growing up in Abnegation I never thought that I would feel like this. I know if I had stayed in Abnegation that I would have married, probably not for love but out of the necessity of breeding the next generation. I knew as a wife I would be obligated to perform certain acts with my husband. I never knew that I would be able to have just as much enjoyment as we were told a man would have.

We reach the dining hall and go and sit with our friends. I know I should try to curb the smile that is permanently plastered on my face but I can't. Christina is sitting across from me and she is staring intently at me. I start to put my fork that is covered in eggs to my mouth when Christina shrieks, " Oh my God you didn't?"

Everyone has turned and is looking at Christina. I can feel the hot blush move over my face and down my neck. "What?" says Uriah, clueless to what is going on.

"You did, I can see it written all over your face. You're glowing," she says.

"Christina," I say as forcefully as I can. I don't want any more attention drawn towards me than already is.

"Tris," she almost yells.

I pick up my fork and throw my eggs at her. "Shut it," I say. I am trying not to laugh as much as I don't need all of Dauntless knowing about Tobias and I, I still have a little bit of Abnegation in me and this to me is something really private.

My eggs have landed on Christina's face and she has retaliated by throwing some of her eggs back at me. Unfortunately with egg in her eyes she has missed me and hit Uriah. "Hey," Uriah says. Who then starts to throw from his plate in the direction of Christina.

It doesn't take long before we are all throwing food at one another. It is really funny and I am trying not to laugh when Uriah smacks my face with a piece of buttered toast. I go to fling it back at him but it misses and flies across to the table behind us. Uriah, Zeke and Christina are almost crying from laughing when all of a sudden food starts flying from the other table over to ours. We turn our attention from hitting each other with food to the people at the table behind us.

Now food is going every which way and hitting people at even more tables. It is not long before the whole of the dining hall is in one massive food fight. I have butter all over my face. I have egg through my hair; my clothes are covered in every breakfast food imaginable. I turn and look at Tobias and he is laughing so hard, he is covered in food as well.

The dining hall is a complete mess and so is everyone in here. It has been a great way to break the tension before we go into our fear landscapes later today. The door to the dining hall opens and Max and Shane have walked in. Everyone has stopped throwing food and look at the two leaders. If we are going to get into trouble this would be the time.

Max looks around the room and stops when he sees our table. He says, "I should have known. Get this mess cleaned up before you leave." Max and Shane then turn and leave the dining hall both with small smiles on their faces. This is what I love most about Dauntless; even our leaders are open to their members having fun. This would have never happened in Abnegation.