Oxygen

Chapter twelve.

I really don't know why John didn't said a thing, but as much as I care, I can't think about that right now.

I put my bikini on and prepare my bag to go to the beach.
I felt relatively not inspired today, maybe because inside me there was that feeling, not hurt and sad, but somewhere in the middle. I don't usually give me up to men, but John won that side of me, and not saying a thing, it affects me.

I started walking to the beach, thankfully today wasn't that hot, I love summer, but heat? Not that much.
My white dress was trying to flew off of my body with the blow of the wind, surprisingly, my straw hat never does, probably because of my big head, no, scratch that, my huge head.

The sand was cold enough for me to walk without burning my feet off. I extended my towel on the floor and put my things down. John was there, far way on the shadow of the cliff. I stared at him until he eventually looked at me, when he did, I instantaneously waved at him with my fingers. I know he saw me waving, he was looking straight at me, but he ignored me. Why is he ignoring me? I looked at my feet, frowning completely confused about this. Was the kiss bad or something?
I decided that I was not going to say a word. If he doesn't want to talk to me, good then. It's his lost.

I took my Macbook out and started writing. I was writing, but only half focused, that thought of why the hell John was ignoring me was killing me inside. Why is he doing this though?
I rubbed my eyes and slap myself in both cheeks, weakly of course, I wanted to focus, not to hurt myself.
My fingers started hitting the keyboard again on the Chapter number nineteen, the book was starting to get somewhere, but much slower than I expected.

A few hours passed and I started to be completely unable to write. The reason why John doesn't talk to me is suffocating me, and it's suffocating me because I don't know that reason!
I had enough of this silence and I had to do something. I got up and furiously walked on the sand to John. I was so mad I didn't even know what I was going to say yet, I was just, furious.

Approaching John, he started to look at me, he looked me in a way that he never looked before, I saw anger in his eyes, but, why was he angry at me? I should be the one who was angry, but in the end, I only wanted explinations.

I stopped and stared at him, but he took his eyes of me and started looking at the water. What's his problem?
"Why are you ignoring me?" I finally broke the silence. "Beacuse I'm a bastard." He said still not looking at me. I frowned in cofusion, "Yeah, you kinda being one right now."
"I real shame isn't it?" He said still not looking at me, there was something strange in his voice, I could feel the anger. But why?
"What happened John? Why are you acting like this?" I asked him, putting my knees on the floor and drag myself closer to him.
"I was going to your house yesterday. I was going to knock on the door when you screamed 'I can't believe that bastard kissed me', if you didn't want to, or liked it, why didn't you said so?" He said finally looking at me, his eyes were deeply sad. I understood the confusion and instantaneously sighed. "John, You got it all wrong!" I said smiling, because I already understood that everything is okay, he just missunderstood. "I wasn't talking about you! I was talking about Seth, he broke into my house and forced me to kiss him! It was disgusting and I feel terrible for it, but I wasn't talking about you!" I said placing my hands on his shoulder.

-Seth Williams kissed you?

-Yes John, but It meant nothing!

-You swear?

-Jesus John! Who do you think I am? I don't give myself to men like that. - I took my hands out of his shoulder feeling offended.

-I'm sorry, you're right. So that means you liked my kiss?

-John... -I smiled and sat next to him. - I did, it was... pretty something. -I giggled at him.

He leaned his head to mine and went forward to kiss me. I placed my fingers on his mouth as he got closer to my lips. "Easy there cowboy!" I said pushing his head away. We both laughed and he then placed his hand over my leg. I thought in remove it but, what the hell, you only live once. I laughed of my own thoughts.

We remained on the beach the rest of the afternoon. We went to the water together and that kind of stuff but I didn't give much of myself to him, even though he tried, multiple times. With everything I ended up not writing a thing. This is not going to work if I keep up like this.

***

I ran upstairs and rushed to shower and dress up myself. I chose dark blue jeans and my pair of black boots with a black top, nights here are really hot so I won't bother carrying a jacket all night.

My red lipstick touched my lips softly and the image of John taking me home today ivaded my mind letting out a big smile.

"-So John thank you so much for the afternoon, it was lovely. - I said stopping next to my door.

-Yes it was Kate, I'm really happy we are getting along in such a nice way.

-John! - I laughed with my head down looking up at him.

-Hey! You took it that way! -I said waving my hands.

-Okay Kate. -John put on a serious face - Have dinner with me tonight, please!

-Oh John... -I frowned saddly - I really have to get back to my book!

-Please Kate, It's only one night! Please let me have the pleasure of taking you to dinner one more time.

-Okay John... -I put on a smile - I will.

-Yes! -He jumped of happines - Half an hour here?

- One hour and a half at least! -I frowned smiling.

-Right! - He said pointing his finger at me, winking, and then walking away."

It was my second date with John and If this one turnes out as good as the first one, I'm afraid I might get too used to it.

I smiled to the mirror and fixed my hair to a perfect ponytail. I was insecure about if I looked good or not but I think John appreciates much more other things than beauty.

I ran downstairs to the sound of John knocking at my door. I started to get a little bit nervous but I shouldn't, I should feel more comfortable by now.

I opened the door and my eyes almost pop out of my face. My eyes stared at John from top to the bottom. My teeth unconsciously bit my bottom lip but I quickly stopped when I realized what I was doing. I felt millions of butterflies inside my stomach.