Set the rules

melinda 23

I smiled when I felt somebody move around me. Maybe I had a nightmare. Maybe when I turn around it's going to be Ryan and everything that happened yesterday was just a bad dream. I slowly turned around and my smile went away. It came back when Michael lightly snored.

I quickly jumped on him and hugged him tight. He woke up and placed his arms around me too. He didn't open his eyes right away. I kissed all over his face.

"Girl stop it. You have morning breath that can kill two elephants" he mumbles sleepy. I laughed and pulled him in a hug even tighter. He laughed too and returned the tight hug. We didn't say anything. We didn't have too. He knew I needed him and that's why he came. We lay there in each other's arms just breathing.

"Thank you" I whispered as I finally got up. It's been half an hour now. He got up with me and looked at me.

"I got here as soon as I can. Sorry about Ryan, I know you love him"

I didn't look at Michael. It hurts thinking about Ryan. I got off from my bed and went to put pants on. He got up and put his clothes on too. I noticed he got stronger. His four pack where now tan. His dark curly hair was now blonde on the top. He looked good.

"You like what you see?" he teased. I smiled and went towards him. Why did he have to be gay? I always felt like he was my soulmate, but I needed a friend more then I needed a boyfriend so God gave me him, making him understand girls, but not be attracted to them. Dang it.

"I see Florida been good to you" I told him grabbing his arms. We walked downstairs holding hands my mom wasn't home but she had made breakfast.

"It's been amazing. The sun, the beaches, the clubs and parties. And oh my gosh the guys there. It's perfect you have to come visit after our Italy trip"

We took a seat side by side and talked while we ate our pancakes and eggs. Ryan kept popping up in my head. Was he in Paris by now? Was he also in pain, like I was? Did he find a girl to keep him company there?" I thought.

"Melinda?" Michael called me. I looked at him to show that I was listening. He looked at me and grabbed my hand.

"It's his lost. If you love something let it go and if it comes back then it was meant to be"

I looked at him not wanting to cry. I can't help it. Tears started falling just thinking about Ryan being away.

"But, he did come back. I'm I suppose to wait for him again? Because I think this time he's gone for good. I just wish I hadn't caught feelings for him. I just wanted to have fun and he pushed me away but I went to him. And I told myself that I won't fell for him, and instantly it was like something in me flipped. He saw passed the big nerdy girl with glasses. He made me feel beautiful just by the way he looked at me and touched me. And I know we were just supposed to have fun, but he said he loved me and I believe him, and that's why it hurts, because I don't know what to believe and feel right now. All I know is that I'm hurt and I feel like a part of me is gone"

Michael looked at me and didn't say anything. We sat in silence. Ryan was never coming back, he was just the guy that was put in my path to have fun with and experience a heart break.