Memories flaming

chapter 1

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chapter 1: Olivia's POV:

I was reminded to unpack all my stuff into my new condo, before getting into the shower. It was quite different going from a small town in Alabama to a big city in England. My stuff was scattered all over my room as I tried to put it into three different drawers... One for socks, panties, and bras another one for shorts and pants and last for shirts and tanks. I looked at my clock and was stunned by how late it was, 8:00 already and I was suppose to go meet a few girls in the lobby, who I met earlier.

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The warm water rushed down my spine as I though about my past, and him. The way his hands slapped my skin, as I burned in pain severely. I wish that changed. I wish id done something about it. If only he knew, or someone knew, how I really felt. But it's all over now. I moved far away from him and things will change hopefully.

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"Hey Holly!!" I shouted down the condo hallway, hoping only she heard me. "Hey Liv! Liking the place so far?" she questioned me. "Sure am. Hey, Know of places I can stop by and get a few drinks?" I was just hoping of a place I can go and get my mind off of him, and my past. Not trying to get wasted or anything, but I just was trying to begin my first few days here with a good start. And not being the other-thinker self I am. "No, but I'm hosting a party tomorrow night if you'd like to join?" she said that very hesitantly as if she didn't want me to join. I had to make friends anyways so I just put it into consideration before walking back to my condo.

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I felt the cool breeze shimmer down my spine when I opened the door. I was still a little paranoid about living on my own but I guess it's better than being with "him." It still gives me nightmares just to say his name to myself or aloud. The way he'd scream my name, and push my shoulders against the wall giving me "love bites" (as he called it) I just took it different way.he seemed so innocent but once no one was around it got all twisted.. I know he never raped me, but just the thought of all the emotional abuse he caused me was worse enough. Telling a 125lb 5'5 girl to loose weight was not something she took as a compliment, but idk maybe that's just me.. I already hated myself more than anyone understood. The way my hips stood out, my crocked nose, and my "man face" as everyone called it. The looks I got in the hallway just gave me disgust and a better reason to slit my wrist, but I was better and stronger than that.

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10:00pm my clock read. I should probably get sleep so I can do some shopping tomorrow to set up my new condo.

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((Dream))

I heard the footsteps running up the stairs. I was sitting with my back against the hotel's bathroom door . "open the god damned door!" I heard him rustling the doorknob harder by the second as my heartbeat sped up. "OLIVIA!! IM NOT PLAYING WITH YOU... YOU'LL PAY FOR THIS," I finally gave in to his commands. I stepped out. Bruises forming all over my face, and soon dropping to my knees. His hands were cold but as they reached my face, it was a burning feeling that left vast marks.

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I woke to my ringtone buzzing loud throughout the condo bedroom. Too lazy to answer it, since it was probably from a blocked number. I hopped out of bed shocked at the view in the mirror. I soon applied layers of mascara and a touch of foundation here an there. Slipping on a pair of light washed jeans and a tank, I ran to the kitchen making a cup of tea. I remembered what Holly said about the party, and decided to go. I thought about my clothes and how I need to buy a dress and heels before making an impression on any guys. I've always tried to look my best at events like this, not really to show of my body and look like a slut, but just because of my past experiences. People think of me as "the girl who doesn't care" but I want to start new now. Grabbing my car keys I ran to my Parking spot and turned on the car.

I arrived to the mall after an hour. I'm not use to driving on the left side of the road. I went straight up the escalator, and into some store. I pick out a tight strapless black dress and tall silver heels, before heading to the register. "that'd be £63.57 ma'am"

I was a little wet once I arrived back at my condo,(since it was raining) but I quickly changed before unpacking my stuff.

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