Memories flaming

chapter 20

Olivia's POV:

I was in the shower for a while to make sure I cleaned myself well. I don't know how I feel about me going all the way with louis. it's obvious to anyone that he's so much different than Alan, and that makes me happier than ever, but sometimes I'm in fear. extreme fear. I don't want to make anyone pity on my former abusive relationship, but that still doesn't take away the pain, mental and physical. I loved Alan with all my heart!! you had no clue. I can say that I still have feeling for "the old him" but the old alipoo I use to know is gone. maybe instead of me seeing louis as another mistake.. maybe he's a blessing, and a start to a new lifestyle, healthy and happy lifestyle.

"Olivia?" I heard louis scream from downstairs.
"yea?"
"are you alright? you've been in there for quite some time!"
"sorry, just thinking!"
"thinking about what? me?" louis said while pushing open the shower curtains.
"louis!! are you crazy? please knock! you scared the shit out of me!!"
"um excuse me liv, watch your language," louis said while stepping into the shower and wrapping me in a towel. louis wrapped me up into a towel and just held me there next to him and would dry me, occasionally giving me a kiss on the nose. he was so cute. I've never had this kind of a relationship before. it's that sterio typical, chick-flick 'warm fuzzy feeling' that develops inside me when he does these kind of things.
"hey Lou, as much as I'd love to stay and cuddle around with you in a bath tub, I need to get dressed." but saying these words made me realize something.. I still have barely any clothes. I bought those few clothes at the mall last month and I've just been wearing them all week. I'm going to ask louis if I can go out.
"since were on that topic.. could I go out and get some clothes? "
"of course my love, but I must chaperone with you on this journey." louis said while leaving the bathroom. I just rolled my eyes while he said that. I should be grateful instead of pissy so I just ignored his rules.
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I some how got ahold of some tight leggings in louis guest room closet so I put those on and just wore one of his big teeshirts. the only shoes I had were my heels and two pairs of flip flops. of course I was left wearing the flip flops and looked ratchet af but who was I too impress. I think louis would rather me wear something not so flattering so no guys look at me. not like they would anyways but pedophiles could.
"louis I'm ready." I said while walking downstairs with my purse. all I heard was an intense laughter from the kitchen.
"aw baby looks like you really do need new clothes," louis said with a small chuckle. he walked closer to me and picked me up so My legs were wrapped around his waist and our faces were inches apart. he then walked over to the couch and sat down.
"do I really look that ugly?"
"what of course not love, you're so beautiful, I was just laughing at the fact that you're wearing my dead grandmas leggings."
"-WAIT WHAT?" he fucking laughed at me because I was wearing his nannys leggings? his first reaction to that was to laugh? and why in the hell does his grandma have leggings at his house.. or even more inportantly.. WHY DOES SHE HAVE LEGGINGS?!?