Self harm

02

After I got my morning beat up I walked to 1st period to see non other than the Hunter Rowland. Just great I thought to myself. I walked into math and the teacher told us to go to the back of the room cause we were getting new seats. I prayed to not get sat by Hunter but we all know how that goes. " chicken sit my nugget" , "barbeque sit by sauce"," honey sit by mustard"," and maddie sit by Hunter". I just groaned and Hunter was smirking. My day could not get any worse. When the teacher was teaching his lesson Hunter kept kicking me. I asked politely if he would stop but he didn't. He kept kicking me and I had enough
"STOP KICKING ME!" I screamed. Everyone looked at me and the teacher asked if there was something wrong. I just simply said "no but can I go to the bathroom?" My teacher said yes so I went. I gave Hunter I look of hatred and he gave me a look of....... WAIT WHAT?!!!? It looked like he gave me a look of sympathy and not a smirk. WOAH that's weird. I was probably imagining it. But I went to the bathroom and went into the stall and locked it. I got my blade out of my shoe and started cutting. It hurt but I didn't care. I heard a knock and I barley managed to squeak out "who is it?" I heard the voice say back " it's Hunter" I made a gag sound and said go away. I wasn't in the mood for his crap right now. He didn't go away. Instead he crawled under the stall and said "maddie look, I know we used to be best friends and then I changed. And I'm so so so sorry. I dont know what it was. I think the popularity got to me and they didn't want me hanging out with you.
"Oh so you abandond your best friend to be popular!??!?" I kinda yell at him
" maddie, just hear me out, yes I did abandon you and now that I look back at it I really really really really really am sorry. I regret everything I've done to you and I want to take it all back. If I could I really would. I really really would maddie!" Hunter was starting to get teary eyed. I wanted to believe him but he hurt me so bad I couldn't believe him. "Here, how about you come to my house after school. My mom will be gone and my brothers will still be at school. We can do whatever you want. Just let me make this up to you. Please maddie please!!"
I just sighed and said fine. He was very happy. Together we walked back to class and sat down. The teacher said we both had detention for taking so long. I was kinda annoyed but I don't think Hunter cared cause he's had it so many times already. After school we went to detention and in detention an unknown number texted me. I texted back and asked who it was. They said back "its Hunter...... You deleted my contact?" I said back " well duh. I didn't need it anymore!" He text back and said " you don't need to be so salty." I said " just cause I agreed(barely) on giving you a second chance doesn't mean that I'm gonna be nice to you. I'll be nice again till I can fully trust you again." Oh.... was all he said. After detention we walked back to his house. He took me to his room and we sat on his bed. He asked what I wanted to do and I said idk. I was looking around the room and smiling. " what you smiling so much for?" Hunter asked me. " just remembering all the memories here." I replied kinda sadly. He asked if I just wanted to watch Netflix. I said sure cause why not. Like 20 minutes into the movie he was getting all touchy and he spinned around and layed on top of me. He started to kiss me and I kissed back. Then we wanted to go farther but I pushed him off and said "no! I'm not doing that with you. I just don't trust you anymore!!" He stared at me and slapped me. He then kicked me in the stomach again and again and again. I've had enough. I got myself free from his grip and ran out his house all the way to mine. I got to my house slammed the door and ran to my room. I quickly realized no one was home. Just great I thought to myself. I ran to my bathroom and took out my blade. I made 4 cuts.
1 cut for being a slut
1 cut for being a whore
1 cut for being a bitch
1 cut for being useless
I finished my cuts ,cleaned them up and plopped on my bed and started crying tears that wouldn't stop. I heard someone come in my room and I looked up to see...... Hunter! SHIT I FORGOT TO LOCK THE FRONT DOOR! He looked at me and I backed up till I hit a wall cause well...... I was scared :|. He just punched me and said that's if I died the world would be a better place then went home like nothing happened. I thought to myself maybe it would be a better place if I was gone.