Self harm

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The next day at school after I got my morning beat up I walked in the school and right away it was Hunter yelling to everybody "HEY LOOKEY HERE WE HAVE THE BITCH THAT DIDNT WANT TO GET WITH ME!" I just put my head down and walked trough the hall. Usually I ignore all the comments but today what some people said actually got to my head. I turned around and ran to the bathroom I took out my blade and I made 6 new cuts. I ran out the bathroom and I ran home. I didn't care  who was chasing me I just needed to get out of school. I ran home up to my room and into my bathroom. I sat on the floor with a bottle of pills. I thought about what Hunter said last night. Maybe the world would be better if I died. No body would miss me. No body would care. No body would even notice. I stood up. I punched the mirror and threw the shower curtains and I screamed in frustration.  I ran to get a glass of water. I ran back to my bathroom I sat on the ground and I cried. I heard someone come in. I ALWAYS FORGET TO LOCK THE DOOR UGHHHH. It was Hunter. He was banging on my bathroom door. Screaming " SORRY MADDIE IM SORRY. DONT YOU DARE DO IT MADDIE DONT YOU DO IT MADDIE. I CANT LOOSE YOU MADDIE. I CANT LOOSE MY BESTFRIEND!" I screamed back " IF YOU LOVED ME YOU WOULDVE NEVER HURT ME YOU WOULDVE NEVER TRIED TO SLEEP WITH ME YOU WOULDVE NEVER MADE FUN OF ME! HUNTER DONT YOU GET IT?!!? NO ONE CARES ABOUT ME!" I screamed. I was crying. The tears were unstoppable. "I CARE ABOUT YOU. IVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU MADDIE. YOU CANT DO THIS TO YOURSELF. I CANT LOOSE YOU." He screamed. I never heard him like this before. I just can't trust him. After all he's done to me I just can't get hurt anymore. I just can't. He kept yelling. He kept trying. But me. My trying was over. I couldn't handle this anymore. I couldnt bother to try anymore when Ive always known no one cares. I was done. Done with my pathetic life. I knew the truth. The truth about me. The world really would be better without me, it really would. Hunter was still screaming. Still trying. But I wouldn't listen. I didn't care anymore. I didn't care about my existence anymore just like everyone else didn't. I took the cap off and swallowed each pill 1 by 1. I took 20. I overdoesed way to much. I felt light headed. Everything around me went blurry. The last thing I saw was Hunter next to me calling an ambulance. The last thing I thought was...... He was to late.