Self harm

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That was it. Hunter and I were best friends again. We were the same as when we were younger and honestly it was great. Soon enough it was time for dinner. Christine called us downstairs and so we went to go eat. She made spaghetti and meatballs. After me and Hunter ate we went back to his room to watch Netflix. Not long after we realized it was 7:00. Hunter asked if I wanted to broadcast with him and I said sure. So we did. It wasn't as bad as I thought. After that he said he was gonna take a shower so you were just laying in his bed and your phone started blowing up with notifications. You looked and they were all on Twitter There was so much hate. You sat there and read all of it. The tears were flooding out of your eyes like a river. Hunter walked out of the bathroom and stopped. He noticed you were crying and he asked what's wrong. You ran past him into the bathroom and locked the door. You sat there crying. Hunter was banging on the door but of course you didn't open it. You looked around and remembered that you packed your razor so you could cut yourself but Hunter would I think you brought it to shave. You grabbed it out of the shower and made 6 cuts.
1 for being ugly
1 for being fat
1 for being worthless
1 for being useless
1 for being dumb
And 1 for being meaningless.
You put the razor back and laid your head against the counters crying. Hunter was finally able to come in with a Bobby pin cause he picked the lock. He saw my arm and stared crying. "No no no maddie! What did you do?!"
He got me up,set me on the counter and cleaned up my arm. Then he sat up there with me. I cried in his shoulder. He looked at me and asked me..... Why? Why do u keep doing this to yourself maddie?!
"I did it because of the hate. None of your supporters like me. They all want me to die. They think I'm worthless. But Hunter maybe that's the truth. Maybe I am just worthless and nobody cares about me. Maybe all your supporters are right and I should just go die!" I said back crying. He looked me in the eye and said
"Maddie, don't you ever say that again. You are a beautiful person who deserves endless love. I care for you. My mom cares for you. My brothers care for you. There are people in this world who love you. I would do anything for you maddie. Just please understand that. He said hugging me. I looked up at him and shook my head yes. "Good" he said. Then we both went on his bed and fell asleep.