Once Upon A Thought

Second Chances

They're all judging me. I know they are, because they always secretly are. I didn't even want to come tonight, but my parents have been encouraging me to go out there and be normal. It's a load of bull, because being pregnant at my age is hard for me to be the normal one. Yet here I am at our school football game with the guy who hates me. I'm sure of it, why wouldn't he hate me? I got knocked up, but it's his fault. He was the one who got drunk and forced himself on me. I mean it's not like he was a stranger, he's my boyfriend, but it wasn't what I wanted. My parents wanted to press charges, but I loved him and people make mistakes so I forgave him. What a fool I was. He hates me, because I'm giving our baby girl to a couple that can't have children. He foolishly thinks we can raise her, but I'm thinking logically and she's better off with the nice couple.

"Do you want something to drink?" Blaine asks me. The game is half over and he hasn't once touched me in anyway. Literally he's sitting ten inches away from me. I shake my head no, then he rolls he eyes and says, "Fine I'll be right back then." Jane, my best friend, is sitting on the other side of me and tells me once he's gone, "He has been such a jerk since we got here." I shrug, but Jane continues to go off, "You always defend him Isa. He's been rude to you ever since you told him about finding a couple." I don't say anything to her, so we just sit in silence until she comments, "I'm sorry. I was the one being rude now." Then Blaine comes back and I scoot closer to him, because I honestly was getting cold. He shrugs me off, "This isn't the place Isabella." A gasp escapes my mouth and I quickly defend myself, "Wow no wonder you won't even sit close to me. Stop being a douche bag Blaine." He gets up and tells me, "Fine. I'm leaving. I'll be up there with more interesting people."

I watch Blaine go up to his other friends and the school slut. Everyone has been somewhat understanding since they found out how I got pregnant, but she still thinks I'm the whore to have gotten pregnant in the first place. Once he sits down, he looks me right in the eyes while the slut, Denise, leans her head on his shoulder. I flick him off as Denise smiles at me. However, the guy behind me thought I was giving him the bird so I rudely reassure, "I wasn't flicking you off. I don't even know you mister." Then I turn around to the game.

Then there's Alan, the school's quarterback. The players were at half time and now they were coming back out. I guess Alan saw what happened, because he's just staring at me. But then he starts to wave and shoots me a smile. Jokingly he blows me a kiss. Before Blaine I had been with Alan for about two years, but his parents wanted him to concentrate on school and football. Not the used to be cheerleader I was, the girl he loved. When everyone found out how I got pregnant, Alan was the most upset. He begged me to leave Blaine, but I was helplessly in love with Blaine back then. I blow Alan back a kiss and he "grabs" it and holds his hand over his heart. He puts his fingers to make a smile on his face trying to get me to smile, which I can't help but do so.