"I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I was scared." Paul hugged his legs.
"It's alright, Paulie." John pulled him to his feet. "It doesn't matter. You had a right to be scared, but it's okay now."
"Thank you," he sniffed. "It means so much to me."
"Yeah? Heh. Say, when did this all start?"
He gulped. "W - when I was thirteen, I felt different. I didn't feel like a girl, I felt like, you know. Only me mum knew, and she never told me dad or Mike. She let me cut me hair, and defended me when dad thought I looked like a lesbian. She let me dress however I liked and got me a binder. I went to a new school where nobody would know I was a girl before, and I went by me name and pronouns. Nobody knew the truth. In gym, I always changed in the bathroom so nobody would see. People just assumed I was shy, but one day..." He stopped, choking up.
"It's okay." John patted him. "You don't have to tell me."
"No, no, give me a moment. O - okay, someone accidentally opened me stall. They - they saw me. H - his name was Pete, and he look like he'd seen a ghost. He ran before I could do anything, so I just skipped class the rest of the day so I could cry me eyes out in there. I told me mum, and she was horrified. But I still went back to school the next day, a - and, they knew! They all knew!" Paul buried his face into John's shirt. "They pushed me, punched me, threw me stuff everywhere, and everything else you can imagine. The fucking school counselor called me down so I could talk to her about how I thought I felt. I told her to piss off, I already knew how I felt. That was one of the worst days of me entire life. I came home with a black eye.
"Me dad demanded to know why I was hurt so badly, but I just made something up. That's when we moved to Liverpool, and I started over. B - but when me mum died, I didn't know what to do anymore."
"Paulie."
"I had nobody. Me dad and Mike still don't know, that's why you've never met them. I don't have anybody." He slumped down, covering his face.
"No way, you have me!" John tackle-hugged him, muttering soothing words. "You have me."
"John, thank you." Paul hugged back, crying again. "Y - you're the best mate ever."
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Michelle - McLennon
FanfictionJohn and Paul are best friends, and they're living the best lives they can imagine. But Paul has a secret, a huge secret. What will happen when it comes out, and how will John react? FtM Paul. McLennon modern AU with a side of McHarrison (George X M...
