The One - Phanfic AU

Alone (surprise pt2)

Phil's POV:

"Dan! Please, don't go." I shouted after him. Tears were streaming down my face.

He looked back at me angrily. "Why shouldn't I? Phil, you have given me every reason to leave, so why shouldn't I?!"

"B-because I love you." I looked down, knowing that it was a pathetic excuse and not nearly enough for him to take me back.

"You are a joke Phil, you know that? If you 'love' me then why did you cheat. Was I not good enough? You have NO idea how I'm feeling right now. Like a pathetic excuse for a human. You made me feel like I actually mattered, but I guess it was a lie. It was all a FUCKING LIE WASN'T IT?!" At this point angry tears were dripping down his face, forming drops on his chin then pummeling hopelessly towards the floor.

"I-" He cut me off there.

"No, you have zero right to speak to me right now." He looked down at my shivering frame softly one last time before he said the words I dreaded hearing from the day I fell in love with him, "Goodbye Phil." He grabbed his bag and opened the door, slamming it behind him.

"I-I'm sorry Bear, I truly, truly am sorry. I love you." I whispered to nobody, the only thing filling the silence was my choking sobs.

The silence, oh God the silence. It was deafening.

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As I climbed into bed that night, it felt like it had grow ten sizes. It felt cold and lonely. I already missed Dan's arms around me. I missed his goodnight kisses on the cheek, but most of all, I missed him.

I thought about the words he said to me:

You have given me every reason to leave...
You are a joke Phil...

And worst of all:

Goodbye...

Goodbye. I hate those words. I hate them because I know what they mean. It means you won't ever see that person again.

I curled up into a ball, and being the pathetic excuse of crap that I am, I cried myself to sleep. Alone.