Light In The Darkness

8 - Worries

I shot up with tears falling down my cheeks. I had been having nightmares ever since Levi left four days ago. I wiped my tears and made my way to the main room since I didn't want to wake up and I didn't feel like going back to sleep.

I went to sit on the couch and took my phone and earbuds. I didn't want to wake up anyone and music always helped me calm down. I pressed shuffle and 'Curses' by Bullet For My Valentine started to play.

I sighed and shook my head. This always happened after Levi and I were separated again.
It didn't matter how much I refused to think about or even believe it but, Levi looked a lot like his father. I shivered at the thought of the man.

I looked up and took an earbud out when I felt a tap on my shoulder.

"You okay?" Bray asked as he sat down besides me.

"Yeah, just couldn't sleep." I said.

"For the third night in a row?" he asked.

"How do you know?" I asked shocked.

"Abby saw you having a nightmare the same night Levi left, she saw you wake up and leaving the room. She mentioned you didn't return for a long time and that it worried her. Yesterday night Braun saw you sitting here and figured you may have had another nightmare. He got worried as well and asked me to see if you'd also have a nightmare tonight." he explained.

"I get that Abby worried but Braun worried about me as well?" I asked a bit shocked.

"Yeah he cares for you as a sister." he nodded.

"I never had a brother." I smiled.

"So what is bothering you?" Bray asked.

"Every time I get to see levi and he leaves again I get those nightmares. I'm so afraid that one day they will take him away from me. I'm not a good mom, I had a very disturbing past, a police record bigger than people expect and I'm never home. I mean what if his dad finds out about him now im famous. Levi looks so much like him that even that moron could figure it out. He could take Levi away from me." I ranted as tears started to roll down my cheeks.

"Okay so I get that that might worry you but never again say you are a bad mom. I've seen how you are with the kid. You look at him like he's the most precious thing in the world and he looks at you like your a hero. Don't underestimate the bond you two have." He said firmly.

"I know my fear might be a bit irrational but its still there. Levi is one of the few people I love and I just can't lose that." I sighed.

"A fear is never irrational, they are normal and everybody has them." He said. "Even I have."

"You have a fear? What are you afraid of?" I asked.

"Well just like you I'm afraid of losing the very few people that I love and care about, but I'm also afraid of ending up alone." He admitted.

"Bray, you wont end up alone." I said. "Otherwise people are even more stupid and conceited than I already think."

"Believe me they are but that's not my problem. See the thing is that I already want someone but I'm afraid that she doesn't want me." he confessed.

"If that person doesn't want you then she isn't even worthy." I tried to cheer him up.

"that's exactly the point, I don't feel worthy of her. She's my light in the darkness." He sighed.

"Bray you're the best friend I have, if anyone is worthy of being happy than it's you and why don't you just tell her what she means to you? What you told me about her was what every girl wants to hear." I advised him.

"It's not worth it if it could scare her away." he sighed.

"If you'd tell me her name I could try to find out something." I offered.

"No, that's okay but thanks anyways." He sighed.

"No problem and thanks for the talk." I said with a soft smile.

"That's what friends are for." he said before pointing to the bedroom where Abby and I slept. "Now try to go sleep some more."

"Fine." I said, not in the mood to argue. I stood up and started walking.

"Bray?" I said when I was at the door to my room and turned to look at him. "Thanks for being such an amazing friend."

He nodded and I went inside the room.

-

I sighed as I sat down on my bed. I just didnt get why Bray thought so little about himself.
Okay I get that he may not be the most handsome man walking around but isn't it the inside that counts?

"Harmony?" I heard Abby ask.

"Yeah?" I replied.

"Are you okay now?" She asked.

"Yeah I'm fine, your brother helped me. Thanks for worrying about me though." I assured her.

"No problem, that's what sisters are for." She said and yawned.

"Yeah sisters." I mumbled. "You should go back to sleep."

"I know, you should as well." She chuckled.

"I know, goodnight." I said before yawning myself.

"Goodnight." Abby mumbled back just as I fell asleep.

-

The next morning I woke up early and decided to make breakfast. I just made simple eggs with bacon.

"what smells so good?" Abby asked startling me a bit. "Sorry I didn't mean to scare you."

"That's okay and it's just eggs and bacon." I said.

"Well since it smells so nice I expect the guys here in 3, 2, 1." She said and as on cue the guys walked into the kitchen.

"morning." I chuckled.

"goodmorning." the four of them said.

"Breakfast will be ready in five." I told them.

"Thanks, you didn't have to do this." Erick said.

"Please it was the least I could do after worrying you guys." I protested.

"Thanks anyway." Luke said.

"Yeah it's really sweet of you." Braun added.

"Yeah well that's what family does, right?" I said as I began to put the food on the plates.

"I totally agree." Abby said as she handed out the plates to the guys.

Only Bray looked a bit down, maybe he was still thinking about that girl.

"Bray are you okay?" I asked but before he could say something my phone started ringing