Scarlet's Diary

Part 2- The boy at the back

22nd October, 2013, Tuesday

Hello....!

School sucks! I finally have time to write after 2 days. Well we had Biology, Mathematics and History today. And just to let you know, I think this guy kinda LIKES ME! Oh my god, he's kinda cute too! Gosh, I think I might be overreacting again... His name is Blaze. And he's so cool. But he's kinda popular... I don't really like 'hanging out' with popular people. I tried doing it once but it didn't work out. :( Well let me just tell you about it! When I was 14, I kinda felt that all the people around me is popular, outgoing and HAVE FRIENDS. I don't really have friends. Because I'm known as a creep for talking to myself. So one day I joined this clique because the 'leader' of the clique looked friendly. But, DON'T EVER JUDGE THE BOOK BY ITS COVER! They treated me like a SERVANT! One day they would be like, Foxy, would you be a dear to help me go buy lemonade? or, Foxy, go get us some burritos. I mean, WHO DID THEY THINK THEY WERE?! It's not like they're some kind of GODDESS! But well, I wanted to stay in the clique so I kind of abide by their orders. Ugh, how I wished I could go back in time and pull my young self away from them! And the worst part is that they always make you feel left out! The leader, Dana would always be like, COLD towards me. She would say things like, go sit in that corner. Side note: I am NOT a dog. I DO NOT need to be ordered around. Well then I left one day. Its kinda nice to be alone after awhile of 'friendship' craze. Yep.

Oh yeah, about Blaze... He has brown hair. Well I'm a natural red-head. I'M PROUD OF IT! I noticed he has those kind of calm-and-serenity green eyes. He's so cute and he kept staring at me! I know what your probably thinking about right now! NO. I DIDN'T KEEP LOOKING AT HIM! It's just when I look to the back, (he sits at the back) I see his eyes on my eyes and I freak out in my mind so I turn around and try not to turn to the back. But... UGH I CAN'T. His eyes are like drugs! Once you see it once, you get HOOKED ON IT. Do you think he likes me? I mean, I like him. A little. Oh gosh, I'm not sure. How does it feel like to fall in love?

Speaking about love, I can't believe my parents just dumped me by the road side like this. (Aubee told me) I asked Aubee about them before, but all she would tell me is that they left me on the road side... I smell a fish there. I'm going to just asked her again tomorrow since she's out today. I think Jerffer told me she went for course or something. Jerffer is younger than me by 3 years and he's like a younger brother to me.

Oh and something interesting happened today. During lunchtime, I was alone as usual and I saw Blaze sitting beside me, and I was sitting on the floor. I like to sit on the floor, by the pond. It's kinda serene and it helps calm me down. But HOW COULD I BE SERENE OR CALM WITH BLAZE BESIDE ME?! At first I thought he only wanted to sit and look at the fishes. But instead, HE LOOKED AT ME when he thought i wasn't looking. And when I looked, he looked at the fishes. Then when I finished my food, I realised he still hadn't talked, so I made my first move, BY LEAVING. I walked away and Blaze stood up. I was actually freaking out. Then he asked, tomorrow, same place? Then I giggled and he looked confused. I nodded and he smiled a shy smile. GOSH HE'S SO CUTE. I can't wait for tomorrow!

Oops, it's dinner time and Carissa just barged in the room to tell me that. Okay I got to go now!

    - Fox :)