Floating on a Tidal Wave - Frerard One-Shots

But if you loved me, why'd you leave me?

~Peterick~
Pete's POV
All I want is nothing more,
" Please No, I swear I didn't mean it baby. please" I told myself, almost as if he was here with me.
Than to see you knockin at my door
I got up and opened the door, expecting Patrick. But I don't think that'll ever happen again. Cause my beautiful baby is gone.
And if I could see your face once more, I'd die a happy man I'm sure.
My baby died in an accident. I cheated on him.
When you said your last goodbye, I died a little bit inside.
I cheated on him and he ran out into the street and. . .
I lay in tears in bed all night.
I got rid of that bed the same day. The same bed where I betrayed him in.
Alone without you by my side.
None of his friends know about the incident and they are always asking when I run into them. "Hey! How are you and patrick doing?"
But if you loved me, why'd you leave me?
I'm so selfish. I'm always blaming him. Not by me cheating. I know thats all me, but he didn't have to die!
Take my body, take my body.
I'll trade, take me instead. He didn't deserve to die. I did. I did!
And all I want is, and all I need is,
I can't do this! I can't live like this, knowing that his death was my fault!
To find somebody like you, you.
I swear to god. I would do anything to have him back, to have him here.
You brought out the best in me, a part of me I've never seen.
He got me through alot. My bi-polar, my suicidal issues.
You took my soul and wiped it clean.
I had drug issues and he helped me, now I'm doing them again.
Our love was made for movie screens.
I adored you, I still to this day, hate myself because I have no idea why I cheated.
But if you loved me, why'd you leave me?
A girl came to our apartment, made us drinks, then I don't remember.
Take my body, take my body.
I do remember the car crashing into him,
All I want is, All I need is,
The car punching into his small, fragile body.
To find somebody, I'll find somebody, like you.
I don't understand why I cheated, I'm not straight, i'm gay, so why would I cheat with a girl.
But if you loved me, why'd you leave me.
I ran upstairs into the bathroom.
Take my body, take my body.
I slammed open the cabinet grabbing a full bottle of aspirin.
All I want is, And all I need is.
I swallowed every last one. I ran back downstairs to grab alcohol.
To find somebody, I'll find somebody, like you
I chugged that and started to feel dizzy. I lied on the floor staring at the ceilings. I started to hum a familiar tune and I started to sing it.
"If you loved me, why'd you leave me. Take my body, take my body, all I want is and all I need is, to find somebody, I'll find somebody. Like you. Like you." I sang breathlessly.
And then before I fell asleep, I mumbled the only thing that I could think of.

"I love you, Patty cakes." I smiled and.let my eyes close.

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AYE, FIRST PETERICK AND IT WAS SAD AF
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